Wednesday 26 December 2007

Singapore High Court?

Singapore High Court?

I am DAMN MAD now... Some China People is using the name of Singapore High Court to con now! Please practice caution and let everyone know about it...

What happened?
I am still sleeping, since i was told to go work at 1pm by my boss... at about 1030am, today (26/12) my residential phone rang, and i picked up.... i was received by a chinese voice recorded message, saying something like this "这是Singapore High Court 语音录音,您有一则讯息。更多详情请按9" (This is Singapore High Court voice recorded message, you have an information. For more detail please push 9). I didn't think much, thought High Court so i pressed 9. Then i was pulled thru a music - Show Luo's Hui Se Gong Jian, then i was finding it weird... High Court use music that is so not "official"? Then a Chinese Woman answered the call, she said "Singapore High Court" and the rest she spoke chinese in the rich china-influenced slang. Asked me is this number is residential or company number. Then tried to ask for my full name... I asked if i could receive the message via voice recorded message again..then she insist i need to provide my full name. but before she could get my full name, I disrupted the conversation by speaking English to her saying "It okay, I will be expecting a letter from High Court, if its important, I think this is another scam, BYEBYE!"

I'm damn angry with those cheaters! I received phone calls from China-people via hp before and was nearly cheated without any prior information about the scams. These idiots are using "Singapore High Court" a high authority's name to cheat.... They will not be forgiven...! I've tried to contact the newslines but it seems that they are not answering... So i had no choice but to post here! I suspect that they are using the name Singapore High Court, either out of convenient and thinking that its an authority, the people who answer to phone calls will be worried if they had done anything wrong... or they are an actual company by the name of "Hi Court", "Hi Cord", or "高庭", "高格"! If you know anyone working in the press or media, please let them know to expose this scam before people get cheated!

I got to rush and prepare for work... Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year!

Friday 14 December 2007

Finally Working!

Finally Working

after a month of job seeking, i've secured a job... in fact i've been working for a week liao... i'm working as a recruitment officer at an insurance firm... the job was introduced by my financial advisor... since it was like my first office bound job, I was preparing myself for the interview - buying shirt & pants and doing my 'homework' on the company...

Prior the interview, i did a personality test(DISC test)... then during the interview, the sales manager was like trying to coax me join to be financial advisor instead of recruitment officer, saying that my profile suits to do the job, as i was more of an "I" person... kept persuading me and persuading me... but i was firmed of my decision, and i was sort of prepared that I will be proached to do sales as i approached one of my volunteer friend who is a financial advisor.... anyway, i insisted that i'm only interested in the recruitment officer job... and he offered me the job immediately... i was surprised but happy that i finally found a job...

However, these few day of working, i realised that what my volunteer friend told me was true... the manager is trying to make me into a financial advisor, which i'm really reluctant to do now.... To me, if i ever be a financial planner/advisor, i'll probably do it for the rest of my life...becos i think it is my responsibility to be in the line after my clients signed policies from me... i am the one who is in charge, and i serve till the policy ends... I strongly believe in after sales services.... Now that I'm still young, I don't want to be stucked in it...so I really don't want to be one now... another thing about the job that is holding me back is that i had bad experience with MLM, and there are some similarities in both jobs in terms of marketing... so i'm really not comfortable about it...

These few days have been interesting... as i got to meet alot of people for interview and got to understand some people's characteristics... i went into looking at gestures and content of conversation to find out more abt those candidates... i also saw some of the worse resumes in my life.... the kind of photos they post totally fail one lor... anyhow take, must well don't put photo... the negative side is that the manager isn't really supportive about things i do...for example i wanted candidates to draw... he said "draw WHAT?! don't need to do that..." i just wanted to pick up more hints about the candidate, but all he is interested about is whether they wanna join us... sianz... then he is trying to send me out on streets to do 'survey' to get people come for interview... this was what i did last time... i hated it... every kid can do it... i think its kind of 'downgrading' to do it... i really don't like to do things that i got sick doing... last time really every night for 3 - 4 months, kept standing on streets in shirt and pants to pester people to do survey... agh~!

Anyway, i think i gonna endure lah... need the experience so that the next job will be easier to hook... sianz... i'm damn tired everyday...~ and on hand i have the volunteer xmas project... not really getting enough help... think its gonna be quite a sucky one... argh... i cannot let my project be yucky and sucky.... 1 more week to make it better!!! alright, thats all for my ranting... hope i can find time and chance to blog...[my 'good' brother has been hogging the computer and has not been working for dont know how long]... i shall not start another ranting... i better end here...! FULLSTOP

Thursday 22 November 2007

Negative Morning

Negative Morning

Someone made me wanna add arguments in my cover letter to show that CCA/Social Activities are also a form of experience and definitely hardwork! Someone from job agency tried to bullshit to me!

It all started with a resume i sent... i saw this executive assistant job with good pay, so i just sent my resume to try luck... the same day in the afternoon when i was going out to Jacky's place, someone called, i immediately thought it was Jacky and was trying to ask him whether his place was raining in my opening sentence.... then an unfamiliar voice replied me... then i realised its not Jacky.. He was the guy i emailed regarding the job... the unusual opening to our conversation led to a good ending, when he asked me if i want to join his company instead, then he will refer me to his colleagues. I was quite happy becos its the first reply after sending out some resumes.

2 days later, which is today [just now] someone called... and i woke up immediately from dreamland to answer his call... he was telling me that he was reading thru my resume and would like to know what kind of jobs i'm looking... then i said maybe HR [becos i assumed this is a follow up call, recruitment = HR right?] anyway he told me off by saying i have no experience, difficult even though some companies don't mind fresh graduates...then suddenly say got 1 accounts assistant position, don't need ACCA qualifications one, and don't mind fresh graduate one...and keep nagging at me that i don't have experience don't have experience blah blah blah... then why not consider the job....and after all the negative comments, he say he is not trying to push the job to me ask me consider... which sounds bullshiting to me... you were obviously derailing me and trying to push sales... and he asked me what other jobs i like to look for... i said events... then he say same thing no experiences... then i said i wanna use some experience i've gained from my social activities to the job i gonna do, events is one of the things i always do...then he said its just CCA... wah this is really too much... the fact that i'm fresh, my resumes really got nothing much to write... i include my social activities and my achievement with the groups.... and above all those are hard work! what do you mean by its just CCA.... so its just for kids level..not good enough to be considered.... at least i have something to write about... lastly he asked me to get back to him if i'm interested in the accounts assistant job... anyway, i don't even remember that fellow's name..... he didn't even made it clear at the start...mumbled his name to me...

i feel so so so wanna write in the cover letter to respect work, especially voluntary work! anyway in case i was too naggy and you didn't know why i nagging now... its simply becos of the 'its just CCA' comment... others contents of conversation, i'm still ok... cos i know its part of his job to push sales... lol.... he stepped on my tail when he don't recognise my efforts in volunteering....

whatever lah, i will still continue my quest of the JOB~

Thursday 15 November 2007

Job Hunting

Job Hunting!

I've been looking over and over again thru' jobcentral, jobstreet, monster, etc.... nothing seems interesting and suitable... maybe not all but most... hmm... i'm looking for a career, not play play one... not studying so soon until i save enough... so i hope to concentrate on career first... in the reality experiences and qualification counts... i have neither...

Things i consider:
Job scope - i'm more of interested in education, events, marketing, tourism, and some customer service related jobs... but i'm really open for opportunities...
Company - the size of company equivalent to my future career advancement... i don't mind working for small firms but they must have the qualities to be big...
Salary - this determines how much i can save for my studies and how much i'm left with to spend... important~!
Location - after 'working' 1 yr 10 months in the extreme east... i truely know how travelling time matters and how killing it can be to travel long hours... so location must be accessible... bukit panjang's buses can go central, north, south and marine parade the furthest... kekez...

sent resume for national education executive, a job which is based in schools to do coordination and planning of events and NE in school, which is something i have been doing... but my qualification is lower than expected, and till now no reply... so... kekez... should be gone case...

sent resume to STB, which was recommended by a volunteer friend..but i think also gone case liao...

other 'on hold' jobs are, events coordinator at rasa sentosa, customer service officer at singtel, marketing executive for various firms...

at the rate of development, i think i will end up working part time job first... cos i'm gonna be super broke very soon~

i'm super duper 'fan2' ah~!

if got any jobs you think suitable for me...please let me know... i assume most of you know my pattern and know whats suitable... kekez *cross fingers*

Friday 9 November 2007

CPL no more~ ORD Loh!

CPL no more~ ORD loh~!

finally out of military life... I am a Mister once again~! No more Rank + Name! At least not in the near future, since my next In Camp Training won't come so soon... 1 year 10 months of drama comes to the end.... it was really dramatic lah... full of episodes...

Episode 1: The Enlistment
like everyone, day 1 is always full of uncertainty and anticipation... the new friends, the new rules, the new place and the damn new head...!

Episode 2: The First Bookout
its like some kind of BIG day... everyone was so happy and excited.... its is even so because we got to bookout 3 days after enlistment...all thanks to the malay community! Selamat Hari Raya~! But the military rules always dampen our moods.... must sign this and that, got a good 'lecturing' before we could book out for less than 20 hours....

Episode 3: Worse Birthday
my worse birthday.... no songs no presents, no loved one... because i'm still a bloody recruit! and my luck was damn down that day... my platoon kena punished for stupid things...

Episode 4: My Riffle and my Buddy!
I am a peace lover, but hahaha firing the 1st shot was damn exciting... bang bang~! the buddy system sometimes really cocked up... especially when you and your buddy can't get a long... but luckily mine was fine...and i also found myself another buddy, Mr See!

Episode 5: First Outfield
It was raining day and night.... walking uphill down hill....

Episode 6: Muzzle Affairs
Damn bad luck... I kept reminding myself and others to keep their muzzle properly... but i ened up losing mine secretly... i really did kept it properly... somehow it disappeared...

Episode 7: Sucky Doctor
10 hours of waiting.... 30mins in the consultation room... only 5 mins of attention... and 1 stupid comment... i tasted the lousiness of military's medical services....

Episode 8: POP

Things weren't what i saw all the while... some people were obviously acting... and i was graded one of the lowest in one of the peer appraisals... many people doubted my abilities... and i was nearly disqualified to continue my route... just because some people graded my low in 1 peer appraisal.... the contradicting thing is that my platoon peer appraisal was okay and considered good... its all because they want to achieve their best interest.... anyway i still passed out and could continue after much trouble...

Episode 9: Sniper Attack

weapons and weapons....all day long.... cleaning and greasing, cleaning and greasing.... thats a routine of a weaponman... but it was an eye opener to be able to see and fire so many weapons... even those that we see only in games came real... the best was still during the sniper course... it was such a privilege to use it... and the experience of making and wearing of the geeli suit was memorable...

Episode 10: Airborne!
right left, right left, jump! it was more thrilling than any thrill rides and it doesn't make me motion sick.... i've got a silver wing upon my chest~ yeah~

Episode 11: Pain and Suffering
Injured myself during a live descent... but had to carry on with training... didn't realise it so serious until the pain wins my mind...

Episode 12: Ugly people
People around me turned ugly.... they think i faked my injury, they think i chao keng... they think i've got a lousy attitude... no one was there for me.... Only i can save myself....


Episode 13: New Work

3 months after injury, i was posted out.... and my new job is still within the camp...which i was really reluctant to join... partly because of injury secondly because of the ugly people... being inthe same camp, means i still have to face them... sad~ but things were slightly better at the new place, even though there were still ugly people making life difficult...

Episode 14: Surgery
Finally after 10 months... i got to treat my ligament injury.... it was another level of suffering.... i've got only my loved ones.... frankly there wasn't many who cared.... and the pain was more than i expected...

Episode 15: Final Stage
Life was more peaceful, and was like after storm... after resting at home for 4 months odd, i returned to work... and things were smoother than i thought.... very soon the ORD came~

Saturday 27 October 2007

Disappeared 26 days

Disappeared 26 days

I'm back! [i've been using this phrase very often, think alot other bloggers use it often too]

actually to a certain extent, i did it on purpose.... haha to let the ktv recordings stay as visible as possible... no lah not really lah.... maybe just becos i had lesser chances to use the computer and whenever i use it, i was either half-dead or almost dead, after working and travelling...16 hours gone just like that everyday...

did alot of things during these 26 days.... many many friend outings, a few birthday parties, brough elderlys to chinatown and sengkang's charity dinner, a complimentary concert, a few ktv sessions, and not to forget work work work work work work work work work work.... [work refers to ns]

anyway, i noticed the number of guest visiting has been increasing... i know several of you out there visits here religously, seeing the same posts for 26 days.... also noticed some people listened to the ktv recordings showing preferance to some songs... kekez thanks for the support care and concern..... thats y i'm posting now! kekez...

but sadly, i ending this entry here... i'll write soon.... *wave as if i have alot of fans* lol... i'm a disgusting morron~! lalalala...

Possible entries that are coming soon
-song Intros
-ord lor!
-my new good friend
-places i hate to be alone
-JAY!

Monday 1 October 2007

A piece of summer, a peace of cheer

a piece of summer, a peace of cheer



went to cheer chen's concert with kaicheng on saturday... noticed her when she sang "还是会寂寞" many years ago... then 2 years ago she was promoting "华丽的冒险" album, she became one of my favourite singer... like her clean sweet voice + 'eventful' singing and above all she is talented.... in that album i especially like, "旅行的意义"....

saturday night's concert was definitely a memorable one... me and kaicheng were immersed in her soulful singing... it was like a music therapy session.... the accoustic was nice, her singing was crystal clear.... every song was full of emotions... she looked and sounded so special that night...

she appeared like an singing angel, in a white dress with a guitar, and started off with smooth and slow pieces - singing and strumming the guitar... after singing a few songs then she greeted shyly to the audience "晚安,我是陈绮贞" and the audience laughed, because she sounded really very shy and softly with her cute voice... the mood of the concert slowly moved from "九份的咖啡店", "躺在你的衣柜", "还是会寂寞", "华丽的冒险" towards the climax when she sang "让我想一想", "女明星", "吉他手", "1234567"...almost everyone stood up... me and kaicheng stood up and wanted to 'secretly' walked to the front to take a few closer photos of her and we managed to 'steal' some shots, but it still looked far....At one point of the concert, she came on the stage to the audience... both of us rushed forward and she was standing infront of us!!Cheer also brought us a new song inspired by her concern for the less fortunate ones and an old song that had never been recorded in any of her album. Then she surpposely ended the concert with "旅行的意义", before the song, the big screens were showing the discussion about whether to get Cheer to put on a helmet while singing this song, many fans followed suit by wearing different types of helmets from home made to biker's helmet... after singing the song, she "bye!" and left the stage immediately...

everyone were shouting for encore, "encore! *clap clap clap*, encore!! *clap clap clap*, encore!!!" then she reappeared wearing her concert t-shirt with a vest.. she performed "和你在一起" "慢慢长夜" and left the stage... but we wanted more... "ENCORE! ENCORE!" both of us don't bother about the security and rushed to the front of the stage to wait for miracle to happen.... and she really came back to stage and she said "其实我不善于说话,今晚我们唱歌吧!" all of us were so happy.... and she sang "告诉我", a familiar song to all, everyone were singing together with her... she left the stage again...but audience were still very enthusiastic... chanting her name and asking her not to leave...after awhile, she reappeared again looking emotional, and said she also don't wanna leave... and she sang "太聪明".... lights were on after she finished singing... we thought the chances of her reappearing is low so both of us walked towards the exit while a handful of the audience still standing in front of stage chanting encore... just before we reached the middle of the hall, those people shouted and screaming again...she reappeared on stage for the 5th time! "微凉的你" then she and her team held hand in hand and thanked us after the song... finally, everyone were more willing to leave now....

this concert was my first concert... and i'm glad that she was the 1st artiste i've got to watch and listen! alot of the songs sounded very familiar, even though i don't know their titles, but i'm sure i'll be searching those songs and keeping more of them in my library of songs.... i enjoyed the concert with kaicheng too, he is crazy over Cheer... me too! kekez... she is so special!!!

Tuesday 11 September 2007

HydroMusic Post 1

HydroMusic 1

after singing with jacky and recording 14 songs, i've decided to consolidate some of the ktv recordings, since using my neeon 2 this year... [those older ones can't post due to poor sound quality]

hmm... hope you guys like our singing... i know mine sucks... lol... but the rest of them are good~ :) live performance is definitely better than these recordings, hope you all don't mind the low sound quality...

any comments on our singing? leave a msg on the tag-board ba... :)


Thursday 6 September 2007

S Pop!

S Pop!



There's j-pop, k-pop, british pop and all sort of pop... heard of S-pop? Singapore's very own popular music!

Spop Hurray!, a new programme of Ch U, is searching for local music talents and budding composers/lyrists...

looks kinda of easy to participate.. haha no need queue under sun for long hours... no need sing infront of crowd...
haha i'm not a talent, not a composer nor lyrist... but i'm tempted to submit my crap... but my crap all half done... to get it done before 30 september [the closing date], abit rush... kekez... thnk my dream is still not murdered, someone please do something to murder 'it'... lol...

anyway anyone interested? i'm sure alot of those students learning in the music/singing schools will join... haha... the url is: http://spop.mediacorptv.sg/

Wednesday 5 September 2007

Dear's 21st Bday

Dear's 21st Birthday @ Orchard Scotts Residences
Finally, my dear's most anticipated event of the year was successfully celebrated last saturday. Actually since last year, dear has been nagging to me about how important her 21st birthday means to her. She definitely wanted it to be nice and different. Different is a difficult factor, I had to source unique venues and think of ideas for her birthday. Initially wanted to rent a shophouse unit along liang seah st, cos i've been to one of it and found it a cool and cosy venue to host a birthday gathering, then also thought having it a some restaurants, shouldn't name them cos i'm keeping it for future use... otherwise not surprising for dear liao.. kekez.. then one fine day, her sister said that she could get as a venue at a serviced appartment... at first we were reserved with the idea, but after seeing the place... wah it was almost definite that the place was cool! Orchard Scotts Residences is like the idea living place. The landscape design of the open spaces around the appartment blocks looked comtemporary, modern and relax. Furthermore the interior design of the pavilion was like an outdoor pub.

Dear invited her previous schoolmates, colleagues, swami's volunteers and some friends. She was happy to see a good turnout that evening. I was busy from the morning to the evening, from preparing signature board to balloon deco to collection of her 2 tier cake to getting present for dear on behalf of her friends to answering the numerous phone calls to entertaining the guests... lol.. basically i was all over the place. It was great to have a good friend, Chester who drove me around to get my checklist ticked.


my bukit panjang kakis

I'm happy to see dear happy for the success of the party. She was like a princess that evening, having a cool venue with balloons deco around the place; friends of everywhere coming over to give her the best wishes; a princess' 2 tier cake with tiara and pearls... Some people joked that it looked like our ROM.. lol... anyway, my job is done and efforts considered paid-off.


dear's princess cake

After the party, we went up mount faber with chester, dorine, yanting, joyce, melvin, yee xuan, silvia, peishi, johnny to have some drinks and chilled there... the live band was singing some nice oldies, think its the best way to end a day at such relaxing place. Dear and I were hungry, but we thought the kitchen's closed so dear suggested we eat cup noodles when we get back to the appartment. Dear drank 'ballerina' without an empty stomach, and ended up dizzy and was throwing up some fluid before we left... kekez... she was complaining to me about how bad she was feeling.... but still she accompanied to buy cup noodles and promised to eat with me later that night... when we reached the appartment, she threw up again and was feeling better... we sat in the living room watching tv, eating our cup noodles... the feeling was so sweet.. :) after that it was bed time, but i wasn't really tired... and was talking non-stop about how 'stupid' and direct i was the whole day, talking nonsense and feeling high... kekez... poor dear had to listen to my rantings before she fall asleep... lol...


dear and me with her signature board

I'm sure it was a memorable birthday for her, and i'm happy to be part of her fond memories... :) all the best for your future endeavours... love~

Saturday 25 August 2007

HydroSound 1

HydroSound 1



Actually wanted to do this long ago, just too lazy to prepare... its my first recorded program... :) I know i sounded funny and stiff in the recording... kekez... i was damn nervous while recording... anyway, i look forward to your suggestions, tag me or email me @ theplainwater@hotmail.com :)

p.s: don't play cheat and only listen to what i recorded... at least listen thru the whole thing once k? :)

Monday 20 August 2007

Getai, New People, Fireworks, Facial...

Getai, New People, Fireworks, Facial...

its been awhile [again] since i last wrote... well i was kind of busy... helped my mum with the new stall... prepared for the 7th month getai for SWAMI... and planning for something new in this space here...

last weekend, it was the day for the 7th month program i planned for SWAMI... invited Calvina and her friends over to sing, well if i didn't remember their names wrongly, they are Felicia, Xue-er and Veron... their heavenly voices crooned the crowd... everyone was telling me they sing really nice, and asked me how i found them.. kekez... really need to thank Calvina & Evelyn for arranging it for me, not forgetting the 3 girls who came too...


Besides the the girls, i invited a retiree uncle to sing a dialect pop songs, and he is a hyperactive uncle who loves singing...he has his own collection of discs and sounds professional...The hype of the event was when Anthony appeared in handmade bikini top, weird wig and makeup, performing with Joseph who trying to pimp... the duo acted wit the song "sio ba zhang" damn funny... everyone was putting money into the bikini top's cups.. LOL...



towards the end, Gan-ma and Xiuying brought us some nice songs too... and the working staffs in the winning team of the SWAMI dancing idol brought us their winning dance... In between the performance, i arranged auction for the residents to bid for something they like, using blank cheques we gave them... they were bidding for items like mini-radio, bak gua, fans, food hampers... some amount went more than 5000...


the event ended with a casino gambling session in the hall... it was quite a mess, cos we had limited number of volunteers, we had to prepare the casino and get the residents to move orderly but they were everywhere... some older volunteers didn't bother about me and started some stations without arranging them in the order i planned... in the end, i also couldn't do anything and let it continue that way, since alot of residents were already gambling... this really the only part that i'm disappointed about... but weird thing is its seems like everyone were okay and enjoying. well, its another lesson learnt... really thank the help and support for the event from everyone...

recently, got to know some new friends in the neighbourhood thru wholivesnearyou.. most of good people and we went out for several outings to have dinner, singing, games and movie... haha we loved to gossip and talked alot of things... we have a few common enemies too... LOL... and there are definitely some buaya and bad people... and i'm really not interested to be associated with those kind... i hate it when guys ask me for numbers of another girl... i hate it when guys brag like the world is his but can't pay back the small amount of money borrowed... its damn turn off...

and there's this weird girl in the forum trying to do social escort business... and after reading some info about her, i really find her unbelievable... don't know what to say... the world is filled with super weirdos... and i cannot understand how a girl can try to 'prey' on girls to work as social escorts for her to earn commission... don't she worry that the girls might meet perverts? damn angry with this kind of people...


went to fireworks festival 2007 on sat after the getai, with dear, michelle and davin... damn crowded.... everyone looked like ants, i quoted from what dear said that night... kekez... it was our first time to the floating platform... waited for almost an hour before the fireworks started... my silly dear is really a small girl... she was looking at the fireworks with the innocent eyes and stunning look... haha... see liao you'll want to sayang her... kekez... the fireworks not as nice as previous ones we saw, its still as excited watching the fireworks... after the show, we walked to carrefour for to kill time as it was still quite early... all of a sudden, wanted to surprise dear, so sneaked into mini toons to try my luck... surprising i was able to find a really cute 'stitch' with innocent look, which resembles dear... i picked it up and found the ears can be twisted.. haha, even better... so quickly bought it and surprise her... haha... its kind of the first soft toy i bought for her... and she loved it... kekez... feels happy to see her happy... we named it 'inno' because i insisted it to be related to innocent...

yesterday went facial..... kekez... its been 5 yrs years since i first went with my mum... dear arranged it for me one... cause my skin getting bad these days... wah it was damn pain when the lady was clearing the black heads on my nose... she told me i could 'make noise' if its pain...but i paiseh lah... all girls... i only guy there... if scream i lose my pride liao... LOL... i die die also didn't make any noise... kekez... after the scratching, squeezing and etc.... my face was 'eletrocuted'.... wah don't know how to describe the pain and feel... very fast.. the 1 and half hr session ended... kekez...

Monday 6 August 2007

A Secret That You Have To Find Out

A Secret That You Have To Find Out




I've never cried like what i did for a movie... really cried, not just tears...
this is the first one...

I won't say anymore... you definitely have to watch this movie...!

Secret, 不能说的秘密 now in cinemas...

Sunday 5 August 2007

Blablabla...

What I wanna write? Don't know leh...

I want to write but don't know what to write... a lot of things in mind... thought i could spill some out to ease my mind and can sleep better... at this junction, i really do not know what to write...

hmmm... just anyhow talk ba...

we brought some elderly to a nearby hawker centre for early dinner, and for them to taste outside food.... i was feeding an indian dementia uncle... i fed him with quite big spoon of bee hoon goreng, but he could not hold everything in his mouth and some bee hoon scatter over his shirt... i tried to feed small portion but still as messy... i thought i was doing a bad job, then another female volunteer came over and took over me... she fed him with smaller portion and didn't make a mess... the uncle actually has quite good appetite, ate very fast... and mumbled some malay and english to us... when asked whether the food is 'sedap' - tasty in malay, he raised his thumbs up... :) then he kept saying 'carry on, carry on'... i did a few actions, and i realised he actually wanted me to feed him... haha so surprised, think he prefers big 'mouth' of food... when i fed him again, he smiled to me... said "you good"... wah... so 'over the moon' lah... then i tried to chat with him, he didn't response much... but knew he was a mechanic in the garden last time, was malaysian and has 3 sons... i asked his age, he couldn't remember liao... he is really a nice old man, when he sneezed out bee hoon on me, while i was feeding, he was apologetic... haha...

dear having bad flu, nose red red... and had moody voice... wanted to meet her and order her special birthday cake, but in the end, decided to go straight to mum's stall... asked her to go home rest, but she wanted to accompany... [thanks dear!] Joseph gave me a ride to Bedok MRT then we picked up dear and to mum's stall.... damn crowded today, alot of angry faces too... i knew what was going on immediately, the kitchen confirmed cocked up one... don't know how they prepare the food also.... mum ask me to let them settle their stuffs themselves, so i keep quiet... but the customers flared at us who were serving outside lor... just smile and smiled, apologise and apologised to customers lor... then suddenly 9+ no people liao... the crowd there damn early one, and they come at same timing, overcrowd causing our demand far higher than our supply for that 2 hours... confirm bad impression liao... what to do? its not the first time... not the last time... when dear suddenly say wanna eat mcdonald & fries... i shocked~ and warned her that she's sick... then she smiled to me... *pengz* by the way she was wearing little miss naughty t-shirt... so daddy brought the naughty girl to eat at mac, but no fried items except some fries to kill her crave... kekez...

planning to watch jay's "secret" tomorrow with dear.... i'm so looking forward to it...!

haha i anyhow talk at least some things written... mind still got a lot of nonsense but... never mind... i'm satisfied for being able to write... haha i am a rubbish bin... shhhhhhhhhh.....

Saturday 4 August 2007

Randoms

Here I am again

Explosion!
My cpu 'exploded 2 weeks ago... asked my friend who told me that he does part-time computer repair... he said he was having exams so i waited... then when i called him after his exams, which was when i'm really urgent, he couldn't meet my demand for a speedy repair [cos i needed an impt document in my computer]... so in the end, i asked my downstairs neighbour to help... quite sian abt it cos i at first i thought of helping a friend by 'patronising' him... and let him deal with exams first... then when i really need my computer urgently, i couldn't get his support.... i made 1 big round, in the end i went to my neighbour...

Wang Lai Seafood
My mum had just shifted her stall to Bedok. She said that her previous stall's business reach stagnant stage liao, the coffeeshop owner not supportive of improving the environment, a lot of people say the coffeeshop dirty, and many other reasons, my mum decided to move and seek a new start. Its a even further place and she has to work longer hours... actually i could have let her enjoy retirement, but i'm still nowhere near anything yet... If convenient, go support her ok? i went to help yesterday [the opening], business is still slow there.... the address is Blk 123, Bedok North Street 2, 123 Koffee Corner[kopitiam with red chairs]

We sell tse cha[economical seafood], there are some self creations by my mum, and the fishes, prawns, vegatables & other supplies are definitely fresh, cos my mum purchase them herself at markets - if you know her well, she is very fussy abt freshness[a true capricorn's perfectionist]. With over a decade of experience, i'm sure you won't waste your trip. I personally feel that the food is of acceptable standards generally, some dishes may not be as nice, but there are definitely some that will suit your taste buds. I like our cereal prawns, lady's pork rib meat[mum's creation], ze jiang pork rib meat[my mum's creation], and mango chicken[an appetising dish]...

Bad Dream
don't know why, out of a sudden, i dreamt of my father, stepmother, mummy, stepfather... it was another family conflict in different setting... i was shouting at my father... couldn't remember much abt the dream... but i just don't know why i suddenly dreamt of it... maybe in my sub-consious, i'm still affected ba... actually, its really so long ago... i also don't know... don't want to think... i hate my father who actually tell me, promises are meant to be broken... frankly i don't like both lah... cos none gave me the kind of things i needed when i was young... now i have difficulty being close to anyone... its 'unnatural' to me liao...

Old days Missed
I missed those irc and icq days... i kept quite a lot of old conversations that i saved long ago... looking at what we chatted, reminds me of those days.... last time mostly chatted with scouts and guides from other schools... then got to know alot of them... now some still in contact... we had gatherings and we went many schools' campfire, and got to know more people... those days were fun and safe. at least there were many clean channels, unlike now, only left with those dirty ones.... the fun abt chatting those days, was from mass talking, suan-ing each other, talking cok, gossiping... haha...

d/loaded mirc and went to some channels that i remember... none got people... only left those general ones... how i wish i could turn back time....

Thursday 19 July 2007

Singing + T&J + Frustration

Singing Combo
It was singing season recently... and singing with different people also.... cos kakis can't unite until glynis returns from cambodia... went singing with ml, jacky, isabelle, yanping and kelvin during weekend and with jacky, calvina, evelyn and isabelle on another day...

the second one was quite 1 of a kind session... jacky out of a sudden called me, said he is going to sing with evelyn, and glynis sis[this is funny, nvr thought of going out with calvina], asked me to go stir up the atmosphere.... haha... and i really went to make a clown out of myself... jacky last minute asked isabelle to listen to his concert, so she was there too.... haha $26 + cab fare, the ticket to jacky's concert was quite a price to pay sia...isabelle willing to pay... so either jacky's voice really make isabelle a fan of his, or....... :p

Anyway, i was totally mesmerised by Calvina's singing.... i looked at her expressions when she was singing [i know its rude haha...], you see how deep she is into the song... i like singers who can really tell a story out of a song... her vocal range quite wide and her enunciation was perfect, super clear.... okok talk too much no use... u've got to listen to it... download the singing below, and if got problem with downloading bandwidth, please download it another time, cos got limit per hour......

click to d/l...
Jia Zhuang - Calvina [die die must listen]

Ren Zhi - Jacky [another Jacky's attempt on a-mei's song]

Bu Neng Suo De Mi Mi - Me & Jacky [1st attempt, i zao sia badly during last part.... LOL]

Superman - Jacky & Me [this is a funny one...]

Shan Hu Hai - Calvina & Jacky [深情演唱......]

Gu Ji Gu Ji - Calvina & Evelyn [cute one...Evelyn was mumbling... haha...]

Hurt So Bad - Me [finally ktv got this song]

Tom & Jerry
The other day, Joan asked me to watch tom & jerry on youtube... then i actually found episodes which i once had in video tapes... haha... these 2 were one of the tom & jerry videos i had... hahaha... enjoy...

Tom & Jerry: At the Bowling Alley


Tom & Jerry: Heavenly Puss

Frustration
'C' opens brother's door [without knocking], grab the modem from computer and walks out of the room without closing back the door.... tell me 1 characteristic of C.....

I say SELFISH!

'C' after NS, found a job in a bank, but within 2 weeks, mc 3 days. Later quited job, saying that he wants to help at mum's stall. 1st week full attendance, 2nd week 5 days, 3rd week now... how many days? So far haven worked yet... And all day, he hogs the internet.... 24hrs! Brother keeps quiet, day after day.... he never 'automatic' at all....

Lazy! Selfish!

Anyway, i'm the brother... i had to sleep early and 'steal' the modem from his room, after he sleeps at 6am.... I really don't know what he is thinking... Cedric, please do something for your future... don't talk talk talk only.... talk is easy~ I'm not going to talk, cos sure quarrel one... you settle yourself...

I really have commitments like swami, and the css blog, so i need to use... please understand that those i'm working with won't know i have problem using internet, they will only think i didn't do my work....

Tuesday 10 July 2007

update

Update

Just went for medical appointment in the morning with mummy... doctor said the pain i experiencing is part of the process; now that my knee's mechanism has changed, and i'm using my leg differently from previous, pressure point becomes different. Furthermore, my quads muscle is still small, hence it takes at least a year to resume back to normal. I'm given another 6 weeks' extension of medical leave.

After doctor appointment, went for physio, my physiotherapist given me 1 new exercise, holding medicine ball, raise up and forward, while standing on 1 leg... damn shag~ haha... then during a conversation with her, she asked about my previous schools, and we actually were from the same institute and secondary school! hahaha so so so 巧, she is my super senior~ haha...

Changed the blog picture & song, adjusted the font size and etc... just some minor minor changes... when valentia sent me some english songs, i was attracted by this song's feel... music and lyrics... i couldn't play it via 'imeem' cos of some permission clause, so i loading the song from another source, therefore can pause the song by the previous button, however u can still stop the song by pressing the "stop" - red cross icon on your explorer...

Monday 2 July 2007

Saturday & Sunday

Saturday & Sunday...

saturday early early morning went to watch 'transformers' with cedric... haha... this is super weird and unusual... nvr really watched a movie together since teenage, somemore is mid-nite, we purposely took cab down, shared a popcorn and drink, completely the movie without quarrel~! its a record man~! though i disagree with some things he said, but i just keep quiet, tried not to say much... and it was peaceful~ 'transformers' is DAMN! nice~ a MUST-WATCH movie! the bots were so nice la... those cars too~ i love the romance scenes, cos they were funny and nicely designed and acted... the 'baby come back~.... ' scene, the seat-beat scene... haha... then those comical scenes, hahaha... funny lah... those who have not watched it, better schedule time for it! haha... after the movie at abt 5:15am, me and cedric walked to mcdonalds' for early breakfast, cos wanted to wait midnite charge to end... and we took a cab home.... i slept at 7:30am, and had to wake up at 12noon to make reservation for kbox... cos 2pm was meeting some 'neighbours'

actually don't know them at all, but managed to organise the kbox outing thru wholivesnearyou... i was there first... no one was there... i was like 'shit, kena fly aeroplane'... but i just waited and see... then saw 2 - yanting & caine came... haha at least got 3 of us, can sing liao... actually alone i'll also sing, did it once and was years back... kekez... damn boring... back to outing, then 1 other guy came, Daniel... then abt an hour later, our room door was opened by the waiter, and he seem to be guiding someone into our room... haha then i was thinking who could it be.... after 5 secs, junbin and ken appeared~! was so happy... now we have 6 liao... we persuaded junbin to ask henry and caining too, and he succeeded... another hour later, both came.... it was 8 of us in a small room... then i requested to be shifted to a bigger room and our 'party' started... everyone were quite supportive... similar, like other ktv sessions, i was trying my best to increase everyone's energy level... with all my crappy nonsenses... i warned myself not to be too 'over' at first, cos first time meet... but they were quite okay with me, so i crapped at my normal rate... kekez was fun singing with the guys... their singing really not bad one...there were 'li jiu ze', 'li sheng jie', english oldies expert, 'zhuo wen xuan', 'yanzi'... kekez... bt panjang also got good voices~

after singing, went to play pool... junbin simply thrashed us... some games i only had 2 chances to hit ball.... i ended up losing big, average of 4 balls left every round... super demoralising when playing with him... haha... in the end me and ken 'punched' for the pool session...

after pool we went to buy yami yogurt, caining wanted to redempt her free ice-cream... end up everyone bought ice-cream, and caining ate jumbo size alone! she is a big fan for yami... then we went over to 163 for dinner.... we ordered some tse zha and bbq food, table was full of food~ after dinner, chit chated for 2-3 hrs, then our outing ended... super tired...

today, ml woke me up with a call, she bought mcdonald breakfast... i was still very tired... so went back to bed to 'lazy' for awhile, and she did everything to wake me up again~! during breakfast time, she was praising bp's mac service good, this and that... then suddenly she realised her hotcakes got not honey and margarine! haha... she changed her 'testimonial' abt it... LOL...i got her my orange skin with honey and butter to be substitutes, but the taste wasn't nice... then she tried to use salt and pepper... haha... my crazy girlfriend~

after breakfast, she went tuition, i went to help up at henderson cc for the event again... foo was on a fiery mood, shouted at us, which was a rare sight... me and alan chen were in-charge to coordinate the loading and unloading of elderly... damn problematic at first, cos bus drivers didn't co-operate with us... see us young, can to 'eat'... but soon it was under control... only that those in the hall were complaining that we released the elderly too fast... haha... slow right, fast also wrong... during the process of rushing donw stairs with my lousy leg, i tripped, skipped 4 - 5 steps of stairs[with the gd leg of cos!] and nearly fell...heart nearly jumped out~ damn clumsy these days with the lousy leg... after settling the elderly, i went to hall and became camera man cum cheerleader cum food server... then went downstairs to settle the moving out procedures again.... but this time it was much better controlled...

after henderson, went to mad club outing with ml... as usual, the blur queen late, so waited for awhile before going to meeting the guys at a jap restaurant at citilink, don't know what ninja one... haha but nothing to do with ninja in the restaurant... kekez... we were given a cosy 'almost enclosed' corner... so private and cool.... food also not bad.... eat, talked cock, then waited for the super latecomers~ after dinner we went to watch 'transformers' at marina.... yes, i watched again! haha...

thats all~ 9 more days to next medical appt and end of this mc...~

Thursday 28 June 2007

Jay's Secret

Jay's Secret At this hour... the emo me accidentally found Jay's new single... Maybe some people already know... but i didn't know ok? His new movie '不能说的秘密' is releasing at abt end August, the title is also the theme song's title...

Here's the Movie's Trailer and MTV Preview~ Enjoy~

Movie Trailer [looks so nice, so emo... i so so so wanna watch]


MTV Preview



Rubbish

I'm sad.... really sad... sings: I wanna cry...i wanna fly....

alright never mind... people will say i whinning too much... say i'm fake....

hahaha... I joking lah... :) I'm happy...! :P

Collin Chan is a clown~ happy clown...~

I wanna sing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To The Most Familiar Stranger

To the Most Familiar Stranger...

This is especially to you, yes... you~ I know you're still reading...

You said i'm insensitive, incorrigible, immature, shallow, typical...
You said you saw me a few times, and didn't look/behaved like the guy you knew...
You said i think highly abt myself.... and talk bad abt others...
You said a lot of other things...

I read once, read twice, read thrice...

its okay for you to have said all these...

i'm fine...

Thanks for the last stab in my heart...

Guess people like matty, glynis, jacky, and ml knows i am a crazy crappy guy on the surface... think no one will be as monkey as i am outside... but they know who's the collin below the surface... I don't need to explain things that you saw... thats me you saw... wonder if its really me... nvm its probably me... you recognise me better than i can recognise you.... oh ya, i don't think i ever will recognise you....

I don't need your friends who don't know me to judge me.... don't need you whom i never met after 7 yrs to say those words.... don't need to see those stabbing emails you sent.... those words were like throwing all the efforts i put in these years, and stepped them over and over again....

sometimes i say i'm angry abt you... i'm sad abt what happened... i suspect u cheated on me... but have i ever confronted you? have i ever say words to hurt you like you did to me....? I even told myself, even if you lied to me, i'm okay... as long as you meet me and stop lying... i can let it be history.. i dun even need to know why you do it or what... but i think no one will believe.... becos no one believe i could fall in love with someone i never met...

you blame me for moving on... if i didn't moved on 4 yr ago... you said you will tell me everything, things will not be the same... seriously... if it was going to happen, it won't take 3 yrs after i know you, to tell me or even meet me... 2003 when i changed my hp number, i've made my mind clear, i want to move on... you tried to find me, even sms my mum and gave me reasons, i was touched... i thought it was the turning point... but later things were still the same.... i was really hoping for something again.... but... when i was in drama, my instructor wanted us to share our stories... i shared abt you and i.... i nvr say anything bad... but my friends scolded me... they shed tears... i shed tears too... i acted our story during a practice... they cried again...

since you chose not to know me in person, but to 'know' me from what you see from the few coincident occasions... i respect your choice... i won't stop you from telling people how bad am i...... i feel hurt, but its ok...

becos after all, you just like those strangers out there who don't know me.... thats sad, cos all those heart to heart talk with you, like drain water now... i opened up the real self to you...but you chose to hide and chose to believe i'm not like the guy i've opened up to you...

i really don't know what else to say...

think whatever you like...
i'll not find out anything from anyone, cos i realised what i wanted wasn't any truth...
i only wanted to meet you... wanted to hear from you... same as what i wanted before...


take care, most familiar stranger....

Tuesday 26 June 2007

Matty's Bday Celebration

Matty Bday Celebration

Saturday night went to Matty's bday... K-union was big~! I felt lost in it... kekez... I was everywhere...~

Me and Jacky reached first, and waited outside... then matty's parents came, they spoke to the manager then we went in together to rearrange the furniture, test system, and waited for the balloons... I was reluctant to sing, cos my voice not recover from the sore throat and cough yet... But Jacky managed to persuade me sing... we sang a few songs to warm up... but i sucked~ kekez... couldn't control my voice and i sounded unstable...

Then i was disturbing people, asking them to sing... they must think i siao... i talked to them as if i know them... haha... First was Matty's cousins and sister.... then i started disturbing her friends... especially, huili, charine[agar agar spell], yy, and wy-English... they are matty's varsity frens... quietly sat 1 corner, didn't sing at all... i was trying all my best to make them to sing... kekez... charine and huili like xiao zhu too, so my bai fen bai crap, they understood and responded... :) they were like my supporters, waited for me to sing 精舞门... kekez.. haha i got supporters sia - i think too much...~ :p

cherie, peiyun, huihua, and jasper were there too... we were playing with balloons, playing pool, took photos and crapped together at one table... cherie's bright yellow with black dress, was striking~ i teased her that it looked like double yellow lines on road... kekez... actually think it nice, suits her... huihua was serving us, pouring drinks for us, then i joked that if kbox staff got so pretty 就好, just before i finished my words, she over poured the drinks... kekez...

then matty's sec sch frens quite cool.... got 1 botak[skin head], sang some oldies and Andy Lau's songs... quite cool~ got the bassy voice... and got 2 girls i have to mention, Amy & Yiling... I was so impressed by them... They are one of the better voices i heard so far... sing fast songs got the punch and clarity, sing slow songs got the emo feel~

Jacky picked 一直 for me to sing, then they 'pushed' [didn't really pushed] me to stage to sing..kekez... i zao sia again at the 理由 part... LOL... Then i made Jacky sang 搁浅 on stage...
Then around 12+am, people started to leave.... and the mood quite low there liao... so i sang some high songs to lift the spirits... kekez... jumped here and there... walked table to table... Glynis and Matty was like trying to control my siaoness, and asked me 'eat medicine' for several times.... I forced matty to sing on stage with jacky... then she was so afraid of the stage... glynis 'warned' me again kekez...haha think glynis was my mummy, and i was the small boy that nite... kekez... Glynis was 'high' on helium for quite awhile, inhaled don't know how many balloons of helium.. LOL... when she talked after inhaling the helium, her voice became very cute... kekez... then she was laughing her trademark laugh in that cute voice, so funny~

at 2+am, almost everyone gone liao, left the some guys, and four of us[singing 4].... nothing much to do liao.... we continued singing songs and ate the leftover buffet for supper... at abt 3am, the staffs asked if we want to go a smaller room, cause they have to clean up the place... then we moved to a smaller room, but still got pool table, and it looks very modern and cool~ stayed there for awhile and 4 of us left, leaving the guys to sing their boyband songs... we accompanied matty to mandarin hotel take her stuffs... Glynis and matty went upstairs... the security guard's attitude was bad! think youngster can't afford to stay at the hotel, or think the hotel only welcome foreigners.... Glynis re-appeared alone in the lift, cos matty was asked by relatives to stay, but she forgot her ballons still with jacky.... Glynis could reach her by phone and we have no access to the lift, so we released the balloons on matty's behalf, then we shared cab home...

It was fun 'performing' infront of people... kekez... quite lost when i singing, don't know where to stand cos of the number of groups.... don't know how to describe... anyway, i enjoyed... :) kekez...

Glynis talks with 'Helium effect'


Mathilda singing~


Jacky and Mathilda: I still Believe... again~

Saturday 23 June 2007

Happy SMS...

Happy SMS...

I was rushing 1 of matty's present last nite... from 2am - 8am... then was surpposed to go henderson cc at 5pm... in the end i woke up at 5pm... i was stunned~! then quickly wash up and rushed out... on the way out, jacky called regarding the balloons... then i stunned again... forgot to call~... then quickly ordered the balloons for matty then continue my rush down to henderson...

when i reached there, immediately after i alighted, i got to helped 1 aunite on wheelchair up the lift to the hall to her seat... kekez... let those who know i late, know i start work liao... kekez... i never ask what to do one... always find things to do then they won't know i late... kekez... as long as i do things the natural way... people won't know when i arrived... LOL....

there were 400 over uncle, aunite, ah gong, ah ma and children there... they were there to receive 'ang baos' from some businessman doners... this is the 2nd time this year, still got 2 more times.... these doners are very wealthy but good people... 1 ang bao = a low 3 digits sum leh... not a few dollars... u do the maths.... they contribute money, we volunteers contribute sweat... everytime do volunteer work, the smiles, the 'thank you's, make me feel happy... was quite tired, and my leg was giving me problems, but its worth it...

ml was there with me too... thought she so clever, suddenly know how to find her way there, yuan lai she took a cab there from tiong bahru... kekez... after the event, wanted to watch movie at tiong bahru plaza one but bad timing so we decided to take long bus rides home... on the way home, received tien hwee's sms.... wah i was so happy lah... cos she asked me to help her do something... something i like! haha... happy she give me such opportunty.... kekez can't reveal much now.... but its a small thing lah... just that i'm happy cos its a good opportunity for me... if i can do it, then there might be a lot of maybes after that.... i was so excited so so excited.... haha... ok little hint... its about singing... kekez... :)

ok talk abt singing, my sore throat and cough still 'blocking' my voice... later, matty's bday party @ k-union, don't know i can sing or not... haha if can't, i will feel damn wasted one.... the place will be her's from 6pm-6am... her dad so good to her lor... the expenses for the venue and drinks its 4 digits sum lor... my 21st bday was at my mum's tse zha stall lor... hahahaha....

i've drawing using adbe these few days, wanted to design a background or banner for here[blog]... i ended up drawing some 4-yr art pieces... ml said if i still a kid, i will get 'A'[... but now i adult liao... :( LOL... then joan said it suits me, said its cute, then she oso sort of caught the meaning of the drawing... kekez... i'll see how... maybe i'll change to the drawing... maybe i'll not... we shall see~

Wednesday 20 June 2007

Energy's New Member

ENERGY'S NEW MEMBER!

Energy recently recruited a new member, his name is Tang Zhen Gang, 唐振刚 aka 小刚. Based on what I've found, he has been acting in some Taiwanese dramas and movies, other than acting he dances too - was Milk's student once, and coached K'one dancing before.

Hope good things will follow, after this new addition... All the best Energy!

The 'New' Energy

Tuesday 19 June 2007

Water Talk

Random Hydrology

Having a bad throat now... every cough feels like i'm coughing my throat out... my throat damn pain... scared cannot recover by itself before Matty's birthday celebration this saturday, so quickly went to see doctor to get some cough syrup and lozenges. haha hope i can recover by Friday! then singing on Saturday won't be a problem~!

By the way, Mathilda! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Its Mat Cow Day! K-union will ROCK this saturday!

Past 2 weeks have been sad and happy... the sad events made me real sad and helpless, but luckily i had a bunch of funny people who accompanied me, though they don't know what happened to me... frankly, i rather they don't know, then they won't ask, and i can behave like one siao person...

I went out with Angelia to have dinner, talked to her abit aboout what happened, then later that night, went singing with long time no see Tienkang and Ida. It was abit difficult to blend into their click that night, but still had some fun. Then went out 2-3 times with Joan, Ying, Shu Juan and Shu Zhen, to play pool, to eat mac, to kbox and did some funny nonsenses together. They may be young but they are very easy to get along and confortable to be with... i think of what crappy idea, they will also follow and do... won't say no good or anything... and they responded to my crappy jokes.... sometimes i'm the one behaving more like a small boy... kekez... those who know me, will know my naughty, playful, and crappy nonsenses. Yoz... thanks for the times~ Matty called me to go out, and i knew she wanted to talk to me regarding my problem, but i rejected... Sorry, but i know i'll be fine, didn't want to talk abt it that moment... thanks anyway~

During the past weeks, i also started going back to SWAMI... being able to put a smile on the elderly makes me feel happy~ some elderly & nurses whom i never talked to actually asked abt my injury, they know... :) I also started to learn guitar from a volunteer guitar club.... my hands abit retarded... haha... hope i can play some songs for people soon~

Dear and me are better now. Glad that she is able to give in this time, and take it as it is... Actually, i never expect things to go that way, but luckily its back on track... :)

Oh ya, I'm not using crutches liao... i forced myself to dumped it aside, cos i really missed taking buses! Limping is shag, i'm still enduring the difficulties i face, but i'll be fine... Some people, said i'm limping like Tie-tou in 'Yuan Dian'... People stop looking at me when i walk! kekez.. As long it doesn't kill me, it will make me stronger~

Hmm this coming Friday & Sunday, my volunteer group is giving Ang-pao to senior citizens in living in 1 or 2 rental flats....We are serving them buffet and putting up some performances, if you're free can join me....we need manpower to control and guide those elderly, as the places are abit inconvenient and we are talking abt 400 elderly..... 22/06, Friday, 5pm Henderson CC and 24/06, Sunday, 1pm Outram Secondary School.

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Tuesday 12 June 2007

Something about words...

Something about words...

Words... can words accurately express emotions?

"I am happy...really really happy..."

Do you think i'm really happy?

Are you using your mind to think whether i'm really happy or not?
Or you simply think i'm happy if i say i'm happy?

Nowadays, people become more and more complicated, you probably think more than you should. But its not wrong, because of human nature, especially towards people you don't know well, people who hurted/harmed you before, people you have not met before...etc. Its difinitely not wrong to have a second thought.

I don't trust words easily anymore. Words itself cannot be compared with Words spoken tone; Words with spoken tone cannot be compared with words with spoken tone and body gesture; Words with spoken tone and body gesture cannot be compared with words with spoken tone, body gesture and eye contact. The more the merrier~ Because if a person is lying, it makes that person more expose to making mistakes and loopholes. Sometimes it also involve sincerity, if a person really wants to express emotions correctly, he/she will choose to speak face to face, eye to eye.... because it will let the person feel safest [at least i think so...]

just another weird hydrology i thought of....

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Wednesday 6 June 2007

I've tried my best....

I've tried my best to let you understand...

I've tried... but you still don't believe it won't affect us... i know myself that its really a separate issue... why can't you understand even having experienced the happiness we shared... if i'm really affected by that incident... i won't had been able to give you my best for these 4 yrs.... please do not just say we won't be happy becos i can't forget... cos we did had our happiness.... didn't we? I told you everything, thinking you'll understand why i wanna know the truth... I even proudly said you'll understand de....but i'm wrong...

I'm so so so sad.... becos i'm not getting any faith, understanding from someone i love.... and on the other hand accidentally finding out a cold cold cold 'truth' of the 7 yrs mystery of my life... do you know how big this blow is to me.... i explain and explained so many times.... you only kept asking me to "go find out everything you want" "so that you won't be unhappy inside" "if i don't get satisfied by an answer, i'll nvr be happy" "if i don't forget, i'll never be happy"

Wanting to know something won't affect our love! Having memories doesn't mean i'll be unhappy for life! Remembering is easier than forgetting in terms of things in our long term memory... i'm not talking abt small small things we put in short term memory that has tendency of forgetting...Relationship isn't small small things.... In my memory doesn't mean i'll keep reminding myself abt it! Our mind is a write paper, memories are written in PERMANENT ink! there's no liquid paper that you can use to cover....

Not getting your understanding is the worst feeling in this episode... i won't promise things that i can't do.... its impossible to forget until a blank piece of paper... do you understand? if i can't promise i forget, then u don't think we gonna be together? why why why things are like this.... i'm sad... if you really think you can't accept me... if you really think i can't bring your happiness... if you really think our future is uncertain... even if you love me... the decision is clear right? like i always say... you have the full sovereignty to choose and decide... i'll respect your decision... My stand is i am not a computer, delete = forget permanently.... I love you and want to continue our relationship... the decision is yours....