Monday 8 March 2010

Life is Full of Surprises

Life is Full of Surprises

January: I tried to avoid all celebrations... i realised the only way to make myself feel everyday is the same and wont feel different is to make it a normal day, dont celebrate... but i made an exception for BS cos he organised it months ahead - my advanced birthday dinner with BS, Lion, Ms A, A-Linn, Carebear Haze, and 'Aunty' Angel... I know it will break Miss J's heart to just reject the dinner and just went home, but i did... i had to do it even if im unwilling to see you disappointed... Nevertheless, i can feel that u tried to move on, and i dont want to let anything hold u back... maybe i shouldnt even say here... but i am certain now your life is happier with your friends and maybe someone special already...anyway its 2 months ago... i am cold-hearted maybe, but i dont want to be a heart-breaker...

had a successful district retreat and planning session organised in JB, with help of Triston, and the supporting staffs to execute the plan with me.. single-handedly planned it with Triston's advices, and this event positioned me better in the district, at least people are more accepting... and the existing managers were praising me and giving me toasts for the effort... my 1st time in life to down 1 can of beer in within 5 mins... thereafter, was made to drink more... i am a lousy drinker, 2 n half cans and i was KO... i dont like to drink, but that night was really happy and had to give these managers face, so drank and drunk... vomited all over the toilets basin and toilet bowl... slept in toilet-shower room till 2 guys cant to help me out and back to our chalet unit... slept till 3-4am then woke up chit chatted with a few people till they all slept, all beds and floor were occupied, hence i went to sleep in my car till morning...

Recruited my 1st consultant, Salma... thereafter convinced 2 others... but later somethings happened and gone... left with Salma, and i was super busy with appts, coaching and recruitment... Super packed January...

Someone made used of me, which made me totally not interested... but i was still nice to do the favour to my best... spent a day and had fun (minus the unhappiness of the person's behaviour)... so disappointed... luckily i never really put myself into anything...

i just want to be single for as long as i really meet someone understanding, and on top of that having my career stablise... time is already so precious in the busy period, i dont wanna waste it on certain people...

February: Busy schedule continues till CNY... wanted to work but wasn't being occupied, so went out to alot of places... Saw that 'Pigs' - lunar zodiac, has a good year ahead... being in bad luck for a few years, i am pleased to know i will have a good year ahead... think somethings when something is going to happen, i cant avoid it... especially when its an opportunity.... i was in a dilemma but i went on for it... i hope it can blossom into something 'S'pecial...

relatively happy february after cny...maximised my time well; accompanied salma to appointments, provided all the trainings i can give and planned how to run the activities management for my team... my agency will have a unique difference from the rest... i will make it happen in the most positive way... i lost quite a lot of time for recruitment.. but it was worthwhile, becos Salma achieved her DD Award and was top 5 consultant in my district for month of February...