Good People Wicked People Selfish People

Good People Wicked People Selfish People

Went checkup for my knee in the morning... Doctor gave me an extension of the MC, based on the degree of ability, and rate of recovery... My right thigh still look smaller than my left one... Right hamstring still tight, restricting my flexibity, bending+extension of my right leg...

Doctor was quite unhappy with my progress - could see from his expression... like he mentioned, the surgery is only 50% of the corrective help to my condition, another 50% goes to strenghtening and conditioning thru' physiotheraphy....

Sad news is this good consultant doctor, Dr David Paul Bell is leaving for Germany... My case will be handled over to another doctor, whom i will be seeing in 6 weeks time... Dr Bell is professional and understanding... He is so genuine that you will feel his sincerity instantly.... Without him taking over my case from my private doctor, Dr Chan Beng Kuen - also another superb doctor, i wouldn't have been able to received accurate and professional medical attention on my knee problem in govt hospital....

After knowing my MC being extended, its kind of a mixed feeling... definitely i was happy, because i really don't think i can resume work or even to travel the long distance to-n-fro, and i'm given more time to improve.... no need to stress about meeting the deadline... I was actually prepared to return to work, went to cut my hair etc... The other side of me is feeling lousy, cos tongues in camp will wag again and i'm going to be trapped at home for another 6 weeks...

I made a call back to camp informing them about my medical status... however, i received cold shoulder and warning that they might spot check me... also insisted me to go back camp endorse my mc - which is not really necessary...

The other time when i went back, some wicked spirit already said things like "only open 2 holes right?" "aiya your case nothing one la"... at medical ctr still have to tolerate those rude and lazy medics who asked and said things like "wah... how you injured one... teach me leh" "wah... 1 month mc i also want" My mum was with me... she was so so so angry and think they are simply irritating people... finally who got to know how her son is feeling when in camp dealing with those fuckers...

I don't see how enjoyable MC can be when i subjected to spot checks and military charges... anyway i'm not afraid, cos i stay at home all the time.... I guess going out to neighbourhood to eat, going for physio and going out on occasional weekends to social with friendly, aren't overboard or an offence rite?

Staying at home, especially only in my room, really making me autustic... i've been feeling bad-temper, frustration and anxiety.... i keep thinking of things.... alot of things.... of what people said to bullshit me, ofmy future, on of my injury, on what will happen when i go back camp, of people of many many things.... Even though i keeping myself busy at home doing my mum menu, maintaining website, writing songs, reading, chatting, tv, game... these just can't divert my thoughts of how people will be thinking about my absence... i'm telling you that those people in camp are that scary.... i just feel insecure about those people....

And then other than the camp people, there is another group of people whom always bother me with questions or asking me to go out unnecessarily... they just don't know what kind of situation i'm in... they only want to meet their objectives... and i going to say that its those religious youngster, who thinks too positively about the world.... please... don't keep asking me out... i see no purpose and meaning... and i seriously not religous... i say again.. "You control your life, religous is a teaching that straighten your thinking, a corrective action, which helps you in dealing with things... I believe it is ultimately within our control and our choice. You are the one who accepted your god in the first place, isn't it your choice?" I'm not against religous, i think it is a good thing for people... but i'm against people who only think of accomplishing self-goal, ignoring relationship and do not know the truth of reality.... If you want to ask me there, don't force... i will go one... really, otherwise you wouldn't have known me there at the holy place...

Haiz... life is full of probabilities... don't think cannot... think think think end up think too much.... teach me how to gauge please...

Liu Geng Hong's 2nd Album

Liu Geng Hong's 2nd Album
"City of Angels"
"天使之城-迦南美地"














Mr Muscle, 刘耕宏 -Will Liu, just released his 2nd Album, "City Of Angels"...
He released his 1st Album last year and had quite a few memorable songs e.g 彩虹天堂, 心灵交战, 情画. With the appearance and campaign support by Jay , alot of Jay fans also supported him... However, some hard-core fans of Jay, doubted 刘耕宏's ability to compose those nice songs....

This time round, his 2nd album Jay didn't involved in the making, 刘耕宏 composed almost all of the songs in this album... After listening some of the songs online, i was quite disappointed, cos i missed those 'dark-feel' songs in the previous album... hmm this time round, his love songs are 'brighter', and tempo of songs are lighter too... other than this change in mood, i felt this album has some christianity-influenced which i'm wondering if it should be in a pop-music setup... in some songs there were mentions of places named in bible, including a god praising song.

Overall, i feel the songs reflects his efforts of establishing his music.. Shown more of his style rather than a replica of Jay's music... I think you will accept it better after a few play of the CD... These are some songs that you might want to preview before buying... His 1st campaigning song, 迦南美地 is one that left some impression, another love song is 什么是爱, which is playing now... simple and nice lyrics... next song is a song he wrote for his good friend, none other than Jay... the lyrics are provided below... you will find it quite 'funny'... but its a song with a strong statement to people who thinks he is just a shadow behind Jay, telling them not to support him because of Jay... He wants to make his name known for his efforts and ability...

"碎碎念"
我有一个朋友
他总是被监视一举一动
他已经习惯在闪躲
暗地里的跟踪 让人心痛
快乐老总逃不了的空洞
音乐中才能够听到他失去的自由
我们交情很久 我们认识已经很久
以前 想要找到陶醉的心要找到我
我们情同手足但不代表我就是他
请不要再问我他交了几个女朋友
这问题到底 谁该谁去烦恼
想知道 那就麻烦各位自己去找
因为我们大家都只是好朋友别害我出卖朋友 请你不要再来问我
我有我的音乐 我的事情没有~
没什么障碍不能跨越 我要~极限
彼此看我的身材象不象 健身教练
听听着音乐 进入意想的世界
不想再跟谁比帅 我就是自成一派
不想耍不择手段 no no 不要耍赖
不想要活得无奈 生命中要有挑战
不想要被现实带坏 no no不要乱盖
我永远不会放弃追求梦想证明自己
我相信坚持下去总有一天会有奇迹
其实到了现在 我还是有点想念
那跟着我的后面 有点腼腆[missing lyrics]
彼此见能跟陌生人说话 不到两句的画面
不管世事如何的转变~
碎碎念hei 给你些建议
你要牢记别忘记谨记别忘记
别让名誉搞乱你的生命
别让生活变成一场游戏
你有你的目的 要懂得感谢上帝
知道自己是多么幸运
现在你有许多的朋友
各形 各色千百种
常有一堆人在跟着你走
就算事情再多 也要常常思索
希望大家都是真心交你这个朋友
不论平伏起落 都能长长久久
我的朋友~~~

Normal Life

I Just Want My Life To Be Normal

Why can't my life be like the person next to me... have father, mother... , uses right hand, go primary sch [EM2], secondary sch [EXP], go Poly/JC....?

Really!!!.... throw a stone and it will hit people who go thru the 'normal' route....

I like to be normal...
then i don't need to think and worry so much....
i don't need to bang into walls 100000 times....
i don't need to be special, need special arrangement...
i don't need to go a big round wasting my youth....

You can say i'm still young...
uncle also can go back to study...
Fuck YOU! its different context!

ARgh! FUCK.... i just don't know what to say....
I'm simply mad at myself...
why i use left hand?
why i write so slow?
why i failed maths?
why i failed in so many things...?

Yaya... i failed becos i think i will fail... i think like failure..
ya, i don't have positive mindset....
FUCK those inspirational books...
WHO THE HELL WANT TO FAIL?

5 years later...
when i want to further study...
i'm faced with the some problem 5 yrs ago...
what have i done to improve my status and ability to fight reality?
I'd thought of giving reality a good fight by getting something out of JI/MI...
but in the end...
nothing... its still down to my O lvls, a certification without maths...

yaya... try this method try that method....
its like send me to court to listen to verdict....
i didn't do very lousy for O levels.... only that i failed maths...
i don't deserve the treatment....

I really didn't want to blog this procastinating entry... i was surposed to be listing courses that i'm interested to study, and hope to seek suggestions.... i really did plan to write that after some research.... but i don't know why i end up writing my nonsense again....

i'm sad... really sad... maybe...

I only wanted to have a more secured future...
I just wanted to be a professional 'something', rather than a jack of all trades...

P.S: don't comment anything... i don't want to see or know...

Insomnia Nonsense

Insomnia Nonsense

I've tried to sleep early, i've tried to sleep late.... but i'm still waking up in the middle of the night, or early morning... body alarm.... its time for medication...

i'm feeling really down...
i'm very easily irritated
very hot tempered
very violent...
i'm feeling weak...
i'm feeling pale...

i want to be normal...
i want to go out and walk normally...
but i can't go out...
but i can't walk properly...
i don't want to go back to camp...
i think i deserve and needs a longer rest...
but no one will bother how i feel...
i'm a puppet controlled by life...

i don't want people to think i'm enjoying my mc...
and think its time for me to work again...
the fact is i didn't enjoy a single bit of this mc...
and please don't think that my surgery is just opening 2 holes...
its 2 holes,1 long cut and many many more....
fuck those bitches & bastards in camp who are so so evil to me...

i'm fucking mad...
fucking angry...
i've tried to put it aside...
but whenever provoked...
everything comes back and snow-ball as one big reaction...
its a tsunami tragic in my head...

don't try to talk me out of it...
i'm not interested in abit...
cos it only make me feel worse...
my only hope is that those who are in control of situation would give some leeway...
give me a breather...
and let me have control of my life...

i believe in no god...
cos other than law...
i'm in control of my life...
its all in our minds...

Same Old Nagging

Same Old Nagging

I'm going to complain how inconvenient it is to be handicap... i'm lucky that i'm a temporary semi-handicap...<-- cool term :X anyway... i hate taking taxi everywhere.... neither do i like to take trains where the facilities are not totally handicap friendly [at least BP LRT to MRT isn't friendly], and the terrible mouths and eyes of Singaporeans... really only Singaporeans start their mouth engine or eyes rolling when they see me on train... its like i'm wearing my underwear outside.... common lah its just a knee brace and 1 pair of crutches... even when i attempt to hide the knee brace underneath my 'barely baggy enough' jeans... they still looked at me... kekez... on normal days i'll feel damn great.. haha... like celebrity... :p not true... joking only... anyway, some probably say...don't go out la... sometimes, going out is not something i want to do... look at the number of physio sessions and the location.... other than that... pls kindly consider that i'd stayed at home almost everyday... and that they give me back the weekends, if i don't spend them during MC... i know i should refrain from going out... and i am doing so, obeying rules... can come visit me, from mon to fri + sunday, opening hrs from 6am - 6am daily [excluding physio days]... haha... people pls do not think that getting MC is a happy thing... especially when i'm still serving... my house is no different from the cages in SPCA [can't say zoo or birdpark cos both no obvious cages]...

another thing abt my leg is that its still painful... like girl like that, the word is unpredictable... and look at my right thigh muscle... wah like old man's leg [soft, flabby and small], knee still swelling bigger than the left... i'm like an old man... a few flight of stairs can take my life away... and the thought of my MC is ending, my feelings contradicts~ cos i'm not going to work in current condition... haiz... sadly no one will understand~! argH!

My thigh and quads muscles' differences..

my normal left knee VS swelling right knee

Sing Sang Sung Sing Song....

WELCOME TO MY HYDROLOGY!

haha... finally.... after so long... i've moved my moods from homepage to blogger... now its call Hydrology~ no need me to elaborate why liao ba... guess everyones clever enough to understand why... haha... hope you guys accept the changes i made...

hmmm... haha this week i sang to my content... went with Glyn, Mat, Jacky last sat... it was time for our monthly singing gathering... as usual we went all out to have fun... after singing... for the first time we had supper together at "Xin Wang"... while Q-in we saw Belinda Lee, Li Wei Lian [i don't know him but Glyn & Mat said he is also a celebrity] and their friend.... they were asking me if we were in Q... haha it was quite obvious lah...i replied, "yes and those people behind are also in Q..." then they still went to ask the waitresses.... aiyo~ i'm not a bully or liar leh.. i'm a honest boy! :X

anyway here are some videos, voice recordings and photos to share...

Jacky singing Gary's song again~

The MESS!

Yummy Contestant 1

Yummy Contestant 2

Yummy Contestant 3

Yummy Contestant 4

first up is Jacky singing "Ai Cuo"



Next is Mathilda & Jacky singing a duet, "I Still Believe"



Glynis~ singing "Ren Zhi"


Me & Jacky Singing "Bei Pan"



now is Mathilda's turn to win your ears~ with "Superwoman"



And lastly, Me singing "Can Fei"




hahaha... after listening to our amateur singing... its still time for more singing... now in the form of voice recordings... these are some of the better ones out of the 30 files we recorded... haha..

"Wo Ke Yi" (spoil liao lah version) - Me and Jacky: haha i spoilt my singing~

"Wo Hen Xiang Shuo" - Me and Mat: luckily she saved my singing

"Feng" - Mat & Glyn: wow wow~!

"High High High" - Glyn & Mat

"Zhuan Shu Tian Shi" - Me & Jacky

"Cai Hong Tian Tang" - Me & Jacky

"Wo Yao Kuai Le" - Jacky: wow~ challenged A-mei leh...

"Yi Zhi" - Me: another zao sia singing~

"Shan Hu Hai" - Mat & Jacky

alright... guess you had enough of our singing...
btw, try not to d/l all the songs at one time.. cos got limited bandwidth... if you have problems d/l can wait for a while then d/l or get the files from me... :p
hahaha.... thats all for my 1st Hydrology~

2 May 2007 [Previous Post]

Mr Handicap
Its been 2 weeks after surgery, and life has been inconvenient... initially, i had to get my buddies [Boon Seng, Raymond, Kai Cheng] to help me off my bed to settle the 'releasing' problem.... i couldn't get off the hospital bed without help, and my bladder almost burst, after it reservoired many many hrs of 'water'... i'd done it on bed, with an urinal but i ended up falling a slp while waiting for 'it' to come... after that i totally couldn't do it... hence rendered my buddies' help.... luckily they were there at different timings keke... the urinal was abt 2/3 filled~ imagine that~ LOL...

Then came problems travelling... as i'm walking with crutches and my legs cannot bend totally... bus is ruled out... left with cab and mrt... which i'm using them as transport back to cgh for physio...don't ask me y not a nearer hospital, i'd answered it 10000 times.... anyway, the other day, i was quarrelling with my mum, as she insisted on sending me there... i know she's tired and it serves no purpose for her to be there, furthermore the long waiting hrs.... and i was telling her with confidence that i can make my way slowly to hospital, sure got people give me seats in train... don't worry.... haha... and i was totally wrong, after 2 trips on 4 mrt and 4 lrts... only a father carrying a baby in arms gave his seat to me.... i was really paiseh when he gave me his seat...during the most of the rest of my journey, i was standing with 1 and a half leg, leaning on the walls/doors of trains, until i find myself seats after no one is contesting for it..... i really thought it wouldn't be a problem to find seats... but i was sooooooooo wrong... disappointed~ another thing was that people looked at me like i'm an alien, a sinner, or whatever else.... point point,, stare stare, glance glance.... damn irritating... sianz...

Frankly, i think being a handicap in singapore is still to a large extent inconvenient and irritating....I really miss taking buses, cos taking bus is very much more faster than taking mrt for some places... esp. when most buses at bt panjang travels on expressways~....

Hmm... so far my leg still quite lousy.... i'm still waking up early by the pain when effects of painkillers wear-off... still using 2 crutches... my right leg is still weak, can't even lift whole leg up when sitting with 2 legs straight... yup, hence i wonder how am i able to meet the deadline - 20th may, MC's last day...wah lau... michael owen also need 11 months to return to soccer field, what is my 1 month? hmm, hopefully i can get an extension, otherwise it would be my worst nightmare cos like i said travelling is a problem i'm facing~ the average time taken to travel to work is 1.5hr - 2.0 hrs, now with disabilities, the timing will increase.... and morning i've only limited time for travelling as some services don't start so early~.... argh sianz....

my right leg with knee brace

my new 'accessories'

2 May 2007 [Previous Entry]

22 April 2007, 10:00 am [Previous Entry]

First 2 Hospitalisation of my life
My first two hospitalisation stay of my life [excluding the very first one 23 yrs ago], were back to back winthin a week. I was surposed to go for surgery on 12th april, but my stomach protested in the early morning of 12th, cold sweat + severe pain, i was 'sleeping' in the toilet... tried to clear my bowel to ease the pain, but it didn't helped... damn worried...

However, i was determined to go for surgery that day, after all the plannings i've made... mum, uncle, and ml sent me to hospital... but i was refused from surgery... it was so so disappointing... hated myself, didn't know why so heng...

after a short rest at day surgery's ward, i went to A&E to deal with my stomach... doc gave several press on my abdominal, and i 'ouched' the most around the right side, so he suspected that i was having appendicitis, ordered me to be hospitalised for observation....and after 5 hrs of waiting for the bed, i finally landed on ward 36 bed 18...

During the stay, i was poked in the ass by 2 doctors, went for an x-ray, and a CT scan, found tiny stones in my kidney, tummy pressed by don't know how many doctors, and given the 'fleet' in my ass by a nurse to clear my bowel.... the conclusion is i wasn't having any appendicitis. they guesses it was gastric flu and digestive problem... i was then discharged on monday, 16th...

actually this stay wasn't so bad, because the nurses were very caring, and there is an auntie in-charge of f&b wo will give us treats of milo & roti, and occasionally better hospital meals... keke... she's very jovial and cute... if u happened to be staying in ward 36, looked out for mdm tan! kekez... she never fail to put a smile on the patients and familes' faces.... another reward of the stay is lottery prize, my buddy went to buy my number 3618, i shared half with him, and it was one of the winning numbers in starters on sunday... kekekz... my first stay in hospital, sure must buy... kekez....

On the 19th, i went to CGH again, now finally for my knee surgery... at first, at the ward of day surgery, it was packed with patients and relatives... then i was tranported to another corner.... to wait for surgery, the number of reduced, only saw nurses in surgery costumes, then i was pushed into another room, who there was no one.... wah... i felt like i was in a mortuary, damn eerie~ and finally into operation room the doctors prepare me for surgery... then into the operating threatre, i was given the anaesthetic... after that... i was gone... gone to darkness kingdom for 3-4 hrs.... when i regain slight conscious was on my way to ward, by the way i was admited back to the same ward! ward 36! kekez so coincidence haha.... head was spinning madly.... when i reached my bed, i felt asleep again.... then 1 hr later, i woke up and i saw ml walking into the room... her timing very nice.... like tv drama... kekez... then i vomited some greenish fluid.... right leg was in terrible pain... beneath the knee brace[something like the one stone cold wears] was an ice water bag, to compress and cool the swelling on my knee..... the water bag compressed my wound till damn pain.... couldn't sleep that night... at first was because i had trouble urinating - i don't know how to urine while laying on bed, damn stress, bladder was tight, but i just can't release it..... it was after i fell asleep for 1 1/2 hr after while trying to urine, that i was more relax and finally urined! it was already 4 am but soon after that, my knee's pain agravated.... the worst pain i've experienced... called for nurse, but she said that i can only received the next dose of painkiller injection at 6am... then there goes my other 2 hrs of sleep!!

In the morning i was like a zombie, dark rings were as dark as panda's.... i still couldn't move my right leg much, but my doctor was super optimistic, say i could discharge if i want to... then came my physiotherapist, who was also very ortimistic, wanted to get me walking, but i ended up having a black-out... that was when she decided to be less optimistic... kekekez... guess thay don't know the difference of me and other similar patients.... i was injured almost a yr ago, quads muscle shrinked more than others who got it treated earlier.... i was feeling bored most of the time.... can't wait to be discharged but seems like i still have difficulties walking with crutches... then another day past... i was feeling better,because there was less swelling.... then i passed my physio's walking test, and i was allowed to be discharged..... and finally home!

I would like to give special thanks to the people who came to visit, despite the distance away from west~... kekez, Top of the list is meilian, who came everyday from jurong west to simei to shower me love and care~ 2nd, boon seng, also came almost everyday to talk cock with me and bought me the winning lottery ticket...., 3rd, raymond who came quite frequently even during his duties, where he had to send people to cgh, he would drop by to buy me stuffs..... then my mummy and uncle who 'bargeed' into the ward in wee hours after their business... and also amanda, anthony, foo, and kaicheng... who visited me and bought me goodies.......and not forgeting those who gave me their well wishes thru' sms and phone calls..... jasmine, joseph, janet, jae, mathilda, qinhua and those whom i might have missed out... and lastly, i'm gonna MC till 20th may [short but hope for more kekez].... yeah~ kekez... still have to back CGH for physio ad other appointments,,, i wonder how.. later kena stuck at train doors.. LOL~

22 April 2007, 10:00 am [Previous Entry]

20 Feburary 2007, 2:30 am [Previous Entry]

12 April 2007
Finally, after so many months, almost a year... i'm going for ligament reconstruction and menicus repair surgery...whenever the pain gets stronger or when i have difficulties with my leg... it just reminds me of all the crap i've been thru'... I'm really very unsatisfied with my condition and treatment from ppl.... i'm in pain... i'm worried that my left knee/leg will be affected... in fact it has been affected by my injury... having injuries on my right knee, caused extra burden to my left knee/leg.... i've been waiting n waiting... the longer they drag, the more i worry as my left knee is starting to give me problem too~i'm only compensated for the right knee... if my left knee also affected, i've to pay for my medical... which is again another unfair thing... i really feel like calling the hotline to pour all my sorrows, sorrows that not many people know... i hate it~!!!anyway, i'm scheduled for surgery on 12 April 07... thereafter, probably MC for a long time... hope i can recover well... hopefully i will wake up from anesthesia, and hope i'll recover well...

Its been 2 months...
For ppl who frequent this place... would had realised my disppearance... its been hectic and sad... i've been staying in for my rigger course... time to be online was limited... furthermore i have a connection hogger at home...

the course was really a morale lowering one... imagine being scolded and scolded by 4 women in command, in their mid 30s and 40s... and it was really one sided type... as if the other 2 trainees are fault-less... even the 2 trainees felt that it was unfair treatment to me... for a same mistake, if 2 of us did it... i'll be the one who gets much more scolding...

then on the other hand, i myself can't stop thinking of proving them wrong and instead over-tension, made things worst at times.... somemore i'm short temper, when i do wrong, i was already blaming myself, then the instructor kept scolding... my fire became stronger...

it life saving equipment, i don't understand what's the rush... they are always right... do fast also they say, do nicely also they say.... when i do fast they will say its ugly.... when i do slow for quality, they will say i'm slow... i myself also want to do it nicely, but they just don't give the chance to prove.... kept making noise, or fuss abt my actions, or technique.... pack until i also don't what to do... i really don't know what they want.... worse still is that they have different standards... [A] teach u her method.... when [B] coaching, if i do [A] style, [B] will say i shouldn't do that way... and ask who teach you one... what should i say....? say [A] teach one, later [A] will say where got teach, don't frame her... damn sian...

i'm a perfectionist, but my hands are not good at doing fast and tecnical stuffs... sometimes its really very sianz... and demoralising... then they say i alway black face... i'm just trying to be serious... then when i tried to smile when they scold me... they say, smile smile smile, i never see they hot before rite... life is fucked up~

i really hate it when one of them doubted my injury... say my condition not very bad ma... then when i say abt service injury, she said that it was my fault, shouldn't be compensated... i wonder did i have a choice whether to jump off the plane or not? NO! Then she compares my service injury with her wrist and fingers injuries they inccur from packing...~ what the fuck?! how can compare that with parachute jump?

national service is meaningful but the people serving the nation are mostly fucked up people~ no wonder mindef change employment contract schemes... but still alot of fucked-up ppl still got thru`....

good luck to me for the rest of my remaining service liability....btw, i finally get my service injury report, it took 5 months to process....look how efficient our protecting force is? One fine day, i'll consolidate my experience in army and give them some suggestions... maybe also let the nation know the truth~ although it might affect people's confidence towards NS, but if its truely happening, then the organisation should really accept and make things better...

B-day 23
it was a good surprise prepared by miss chua~ even my mum was roped in to trick me... i'm happy to see ppl celebrating my day with me...frankly, i don't need celebration... cos those years when i wanted to celebrate... i never got to celebrate.... i'm refering to my much earlier birthdays... most of the time, i spent my birthdays alone... normally gave myself good treat at restaurants....thats when i was in sec sch... when i was even younger, its either with dad or mum... never together since 3 yr old... i only remember having cakes at certain yrs... but normally didn't have... i remember, the nite before b-days, i always made silly wishes and couldnt slp well at nite...

i'm happy to see old faces, people who have been celebrating with me for 3 yrs... i know these are good sincere frens.... organising these celebrations is like a test of my relationship with people... i don't like to be 'slap' with truth- i don't have much frens or, not welcomed by ppl.... so i rather not celebrate... aiya, sometimes its really obvious that some people already don't treat me like a fren liao... only do some things for don't know what sake...I hereby thank those who came and those who msged me bday msg: ML, Michelle, Suyin, Jacob, Raymond, Amanda, Glynis, Mathilda, Melvin, Yixuan & gf, Pei Shi, Yik Man, Zhao Wen, Janet Lee, Agnes Low, Anthony, Lynett, Ivy Ng, Peiqi, Dora, Jingyi, Boon Seng, Serene Tan, Linghui, Jasmine Tan, Guo Rong, Angelia and Avril.

17 March/20 Feburary 2007 [Previous Entry]

2 January 2007, 4:30pm [Previous Entry]

New Year Resolution/Wish List: To renew friendships and be a better person.
for the past year, due to NS... i only had about 50 - 70 days of weekends book outs and off days, and many of these days, were burnt for in camp training, and to beach rd - again for army... during the available free time, i did managed to go out with some grps of frens, but on the other hand i lost touch with other frens.... furthermore, i was active with SWAMI's volunteer work... it gave me less time.... i hope in the coming year, whereby i don't need to serve as much NS liability as before, and have more time to my control, i can find chances to renew friendships that i 'lost'... i also hope to control my temper better and continue to help. for the past year, my temper went out of control several times.... the frustration and desperation i suffered in camp increased the 'magma' in my volcano... i hope i can neutralise the 'magma' more, when i'm faced with problems.... and i definitely must stop myself from cursing and swearing so much...

Wish List (non-material)
1. Successful operation & smooth recovery
2. Happy year
3. A happier birthday than last year
4. Complete some of the incomplete song
5. Sing better and more singing sessions
6. Know what I want to do after NS

(material)
1. PS3 (year end)
2. Travelling (year end)
3. A slightly professional camera (complimentry with travelling)

actually i don't really need any material item.... these 3 is i squeeze my head out one....not impt also.. i rather the non-material list come true...

2 January 2007, 4:30pm [Previous Entry]