NIGHTMARE!

NIGHTMARE!

I tried to sleep early, and once again i couldnt sleep well and woke up from a nightmare! I am seriously troubled... can I just end my life here, since it doesnt really matter to many... the one whom i will hate most will only be my mum.... ah... !!!!!!! if its not for mummy, i think i murdered myself long ago...

I DONT BOTHER WHOEVER IS READING THIS... I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!! MAKE ME THE NUMBER ONE VILLIAN! HECK IT!!

Earlier, It was a bad day... I can cover sadness, cover worries, cover feelings...but never happen for ANGER! I'm angry... Yes, I think it was my wrong-doing on stage, but I really dont think it needed to end this way, making all arrows and faces aiming on me and the keyboardist...

All these people think of is face face face, reputation reputation.... you have your reputable to uphold, i dont have? Why must it end up to be both of us getting the backlash, and be the scapegoats.... And I hate it even more that, there are hypocrites among us... and i totally hate it to make it the 'headlines' and gave them an opportunity to score... fuck up! Seriously, even if it wasnt a perfect performance, if 'miss fiery' could just simply let the set to complete... i dont think it would look as bad as you thought... by taking way other's chance to performance and putting the blames on the earlier performers, will only divert the negative thinking on the scapegoats...

Seriously, im a gone-case lah... im facing the biggest mid-20s crisis! career suck big time, passion also suck big time...?? im 25 and accomplished nothing...! Am I too myself? or people these days are difficult to work with...? ok, lets blame it on me ba..! i was putting up a freaking stupid act to not let the group sink into sadness...

how do you expect the group to eat and laugh when it happened this way? how? how? Miss Fiery, I hope you understand that we appreciate the chances and your time... but sometimes, you just do things without thinking also...!!! And, I am not the sort that like to act infront of you la... if you are blind, and like to be surrounded by actors... I am simply not those la... even if im a freaking good actor, I dont feel like acting... cos deep down i know it wont work.... it doesnt matter to me if i'll still be in the team or not... i dont think i have any choice, even though i really love to perform.. I really dont know how to be fake lor, AGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i really hate myself hate my life.... why is it so screwed? i am really tired of living... give it to someone else more deserving ba...

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Sir devil asked: "Collin Chan, why not you kill youself in a way whereby it looks like an accident...? at least it wont look as if you let down on your mum..."

part of my new 'lyrics':
我持续加速, 像是与死神招手
风持续变大, 刺进骨里刺进心里
刘海遮住了眼, 也掩饰了泪水
天使瞬间染黑变成魔鬼…

Outdoors Promotion Campaign @ Orchard Road

Outdoors Promotion Campaign @ Orchard Road


On 25th June, we invaded Orchard Road with Miaoru's singing and music...


They chased...and they distributed....




We walked to and fro... and i shouted with my mini loud hailer non-stop...

He carried and quietly followed...


They stopped, she sang and they praised...


They sms-ed...

That was how it worked...

Believe it or not, I think it was quite a success...

And I think being confident is important...
if i wasnt confident, i wouldnt be able to promote Miaoru...
if she wasnt confident, she wouldnt be able sing well to win the votes from those stopped-by-listeners...


300+ flyers given out to music-lovers and stopped-by-listeners...

Dozens of compliments about Miaoru's singing and dozens of sms-voting by these complete strangers...


MIAORU!! ALL THE BEST!! JIAYOU!

Hope that this outdoors promotion not only increased abit of your popularity, but also increased your confidence and belief in your abilities...


Thanks to all who had turned up @ Orchard to support/help the event.

Mystery Box

Mystery Box

Its a fun little box...
Brings laughter, joy and happiness...
Even provides solution when you need help...
It teleports people from place to place...
Accompanies you whenever you need company...

But what do you know of the inside of this box?

Dark...
so dark till you dont know the depth of the little box...
so dark that it is beyond imagination...
it has a very very deep depth that doesnt match outlook of a small little box...
who will know when this box is damaged and need help?

Random of Randoms

Random of Randoms

The time now is 4:30am, date is 20 June 2009. Not emo but just words I wanna say but dont know where to let out... not to people, not here either... Think this is the best time to write songs, and my feelings will be well disguised... Im feeling like im running out of time... trying to make the best out of my life now, in case i make a leave... dont be mistaken, its not a negative thought or death note... i just wanna contribute my all, my everything... doubt i will be as hardworking for myself... im just so irritating, im irritated by myself... haha... its just Collin... Im just so afraid that i'll be forgotten easily... attention seeking you may say...

there are thousands and millions of words i wanna say..... but me being me, it will be bottled within me... <-- rhythms... haha... people around me kept telling me i look tired... do i? i dont know... im not doing alot to be tired anyway... dont deserved to be tired... need to work even harder...

Recently, I've got an encounter with some people's god (by the way, so far...i am myself's god cos everythings' in my own hands).. Miss S. was telling me to give myself a chance to experience god... for the reason being i've been there long ago for quite awhile and i've been to church so many times over the past decade.. also, isnt it a coincident for me to be surrounded by so many believers from the same church... What she say isnt wrong, to be i thought its more like their church is huge, throw a stone and i'll hit someone fr that church.. haha... but seriously i gave it a serious thought, and wanna know why people convert and start to believe... Miss S reasons were more on finding the truth behind creation, solving her questions abt how things are created, how come there's such a good balance of most elements... hmm thats not the kind of reason i looking for... so i asked Miss Roo.. hers was more to make herself a better person and there were and are positive changes in her life... she said something about believing everything that happens is the work of god...god is always watching over us...believe and you will experience god... guess what... after the conversation with Miss Roo, the next day, suddenly in the morning a fren asked me to prepare some protection policies for his mum... i was like wow...once in a blue moon, people automatically call me to sell insurance to them lor.. lol... my worries for sales was answered... that moment i chose to believe it was the work of god and i think i experienced his presence... im not sure whether what i will do next... maybe let things go naturally by its course ba...

i am some damn random... hmmm.... ok im feeling better cos i diverted my thoughts to writing that paragraph above... haha... VOTE FOR MIAORU ok? random~ haha if this campaign is successful, our dear Miaoru will have a better start in her singing career...and i might end up getting invitations to manage campaigns, becoming the jin pai(golden) Manager~ lol... not a bad sideline business... i am random and siao... thats all for tonite.... time now is 5:03am... need to catch some sleep... i am feeling sick soon... bye~

《超级星光大道5 - 新加坡踢馆代表征选赛》

《超级星光大道5 - 新加坡踢馆代表征选赛》

After auditions and semi-finals, the organisers and judges selected the Top 20. Among them are familiar faces from Project Superstar, Superband, Campus Superstar, S'pore Idol. And also among the 20 finalists, is Kueo Miaoru 魏妙如, she is one good singer you must listen and vote for to be one of the three Singapore's PK representatives...



SMS her contestant number 'S9' to 97171003
Normal SMS charges, No extra charges

or

Visit http://onemillionstar.starhub.com/vote.php
remember to enter your email address before clicking on her photo to vote

I am her official Promotions and Support Campaign's Manager!! I am going to make sure her popularity increase within this 1 and half weeks, with the efforts of her friends, Xueling Laoshi and a group of VS graduates! We will be creating the best cheering and support on the actual day, 28th June @ Kallang Leisure Park! Support her ok! She will be on-air @ 1003FM again on 24th June(*subjected to changes), 9pm onwards, to sing and be interviewed by DJ Ken.


her performance @ Love The World Bistro(S'pore Flyer) for your reference.

Performances Updates

Performances Updates (last update:14 July 2009)
Went for briefing and realised I overlooked 2 dates which i missed out... I was doing my usual reflections in car yesterday... thinking back these past 3 months... the performances and friendships... i was smiling with a pinched-feel in my heart... really felt the impact of this course... i really appreciate the opportunities, i may not be the ones contending for the few positions for the company to groom, but i am already contented... if these following events were to happen smooth and successfully, at least in my memories I know i was a performer before... It can be quite time consuming, tired and tedious to rehearse here and there, look for songs to sing, work with different people and getting the lectures for the instructors, but after i performed, and looked back i feel the satisfaction... no more singing in KTV only entertaining friends and 2nd/3rd degree friends... I hope I can get some sort of support from you(my friends and friends' friends :D) in the coming performances... these performances are chances to build my 'fan' base... i understand there's alot of good singers/performers out there, and i am definitely not the best of even the elites... i am performing to entertain you, and people who bother to stop by and listen to my singing; not to compete and compare... will update again if there's any changes to the details... :)

14 June 2009: Location - Singapore Flyer Level 2, Love The World Bistro; Time - 6pm; 1-2 song(s)

27 & 28 June 2009: Location - Tampines Mall, Level 4 Open Plaza; Time - 2 to 6pm; Event - Singout09 Semi-finals; Hosting

5 July 2009: Location - Singapore Flyer Level 2, Love The World Bistro; Time - 6pm; 1 - 2 song(s)

12 July 2009: Location - Singapore Flyer Level 2, Love The World Bistro; Time - 5pm; 1-2 song(s)

17 July 2009: Location - Depot Shopping Centre, Depot Road; Time - 6 to 8pm; Event - HDB Heartland Event; Solo singing (4 songs>2Mandarin2English)

18 July 2009: Location - Taman Jurong Shopping Centre, Blk 399 Yung Sheng Road; Time - 6 to 8pm; Event - HDB Heartland Event; Solo singing (4 songs>2 mandarin 2english)

24 July 2009: Location - Pioneer Mall, Blk 638 Jurong West St 61; Time - 6 to 8pm; Event - HDB Heartland Event; Solo singing (4 songs>2 mandarin 2english)

25 July 2009: Location - Tampines Central Community Complex, Blk 866A Tampines St 83; Time - 6 to 8pm; Event - HDB Heartland Event; Solo singing (4 songs>2 mandarin 2english)

8 August 2009: Location - DBS Auditorium; Time - TBC; Event - Singout09 Final; Hosting

i.Drive & Protect

i.Drive - Chauffeuring and Convenience Services

Tired of waiting for cab, and paying the high prices?
Wanna go shopping, but nobody is there to help?
Wanna go to inaccessible places for a special date but is always inconvenient?
Simply need a lift to beat the Queue?

I am serious about these services. Very often I hear people complaining abt their cab fare, some people's daily cab fare can be as high as $80 - $100. And the queue during peak hours are crazy... Most of all, for those who has been enduring taxi-uncles ranting and nonsenses; having me as your chauffeur is definitely more ideal.

Whole Day Booking (10hours): $80
Any additional hours thereafter: $8/hour
Any distance > 100km, will be charged @ $1.70/km *subjected to prevailing fuel price
Charges exclude parking fee & entry fees to sentosa (if applicable)

Half Day Booking (5hours): $45
Addtional hours thereafter: $9/hour
Any distance >50km, will be charged @ $1.70/km *subjected to prevailing fuel price
Charges exclude parking fee & entry fee to sentosa (if applicable)

Pick & Go
10km: $15 / 15km: $20 / 20km: $25 / 25km: $30 / 30km: $35 / 35km: $40 / 40km: $45 / 45km: $50
(X km + 5 = $Price)
Charges exclude parking fee, ERP & entry fee to sentosa (if applicable)

Special Drive (only for whole day booking)
Vehicle Rental Cost + Whole Day Book Charges + any unforeseen cost

The above services are provided for friends and members only, email your request to collin.chan@ymail.com together with your contact number and name to become a member. I will then release my mobile number for your booking convenience.

For Whole Day Booking & Half Day Booking, you are adviced to give at least 48hours notice.
For Special Drive, you are adviced to give at least 1 week notice to ensure smooth reservation procedure for the vehicle of your choice.
For Pick & Go, you are adviced to give 1.5hours of notice via my mobile number.

All services listed (excluding Special Drive), will be chauffeured by me in my 07' Toyota Vios FL. The vehicle will at all time be well-maintained and for your comfort. All services are only available in Singapore. Regulars will enjoy a 10% discount. Refer a client to me and enjoy 10% discount on your next booking. I promise to drive at your comfort and abid safety regulations however, I will not be held responsible for any injuries, accidents and unforseen mishaps.


Protect yourself and Loved ones
I am actively helping friends and public to upgrade their CPF Medishield plan to a 100% coverage hospitalisation plan. Trust me, its essential nowadays and most of all, there's no cash involved for certain level of coverage. Start early to avoid exclusion of conditions and future complications.

I can't say anymore due to compliance regulations, hence contact me for more details.

Performance

Performances (UPDATED: 26 May 2009)
The school is giving some of us quite a few opportunities to perform outside recently, really appreciate it...Suddenly feeling like a performer these days... Signing a performing contract (till end of year) with school soon... Furthermore, will continue hosting for Singout09 till finals...

I will be having a series of performance in these coming months... i hope you guys can show me some support especially for the singing ones... cos due to organisers' request, i might not be singing songs i want to sing, if support is there, will help me feel better... :)

22 May 2009: Location - Ngee Ann City, Civic Plaza; Time - 8pm onwards; Event - Female & NuYou Magazine; Group(2) singing of 'Zi You - Zhang Zheng Yue', 'Gai Bian Zi Ji - Wang Lee Hong' and OB Theme song

7 June 2009: Location - Tampines Mall, Level 4 Open Plaza; Time - 2 to 4pm; Event - Singout09 Party cum MS talent showcase; Hosting (KIV)

14 June 2009: Location - Singapore Flyer Level 2, Love The World Bistro; Time - TBC, probably be evening; Band Singing

21 June 2009: Location - Singapore Flyer Level 2, Love The World Bistro; Time - TBC, probably be evening; Band Singing

27 & 28 June 2009: Location - Tampines Mall, Level 4 Open Plaza; Time - TBC; Event - Singout09 Semi-finals; Hosting

12 July 2009: Location - Singapore Flyer Level 2, Love The World Bistro; Time - TBC, probably be evening; Band Singing

17 July 2009: Location - Woodlands Mart, Blk 768 Woodlands Ave 6; Time - 6 to 8pm; Event - HDB Heartland Event; Solo singing (4 songs>2Mandarin2English)

19 July 2009: Location - Singapore Flyer Level 2, Love The World Bistro; Time - TBC, probably be evening; Band Singing

24 July 2009: Location - Pioneer Mall, Blk 638 Jurong West St 61; Time - 6 to 8pm; Event - HDB Heartland Event; Solo singing (4 songs>2 mandarin 2english)

Time

Time

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12...
i used to think that only the night/early morning are the loneliest hours.... I told myself to avoid these hours... sleep early and i won't have the chance to fall into the lonely trap...

I forced myself to sleep and sleep and sleep... thoughts just won't let me off even during sleep... i dreamt and dreamt and dreamt...

This morning, i was on the way for a course at suntec... along the way, was an unexpected heavy traffic, i was late, hence i decided to go for the afternoon slot... i didnt know where to go... drove and drove and ended up at orchard... i didnt know what i could do but to walk and walk... i was tired, more of mentally... sat down, took a puff (yes, i smoked...) looked at people walking left to right right to left...i took another puff...mind was still running wildy...for the first time, i realised even the daytime can be so lonely...i think im more of lost... lost of my life direction... i am really a typical capricorn...if i dont tell, dont show...no one will know what i'm thinking... i can like the world's most carefree person, but can also be the world most troubled soul in this hour...

I decided to walk again... i walked past a musician playing er-hu with background music... a very sad emo piece he played... i was affected... he was like the most understanding person that moment, because his music was like a reflection of my feeling... i walked past him and i turned around walked back to him, dropped $2... he said thank you... i thanked him too...

up till this moment i am still alone... actually i am okay to be alone, in fact i enjoy being alone...but when you are lost... you just constantly hoped that someone will help you out of it...

25 years of my life, i've been pursuing happiness, success, love... but when i'm most down... the things i get from my family are anger, and unhappiness... i only wished my mum could give me a hug and give me support and not getting angry over me... some people like to compare, but i dont like to... cos i know i am feeling bad enough to think i am not happy.... boss dont keep thinking that i am negative, dont think that i should be like others.... the fact is when i was slogging my ass contributing my sales to your team, your team wasn't working... now that they are 'working' means i am not? i dont need those motivational course... cos i've been thru' enough of those... and ultimately, things are in our hands... i know i have to control myself and i do have control over myself... by assuming and presuming things about me, makes me sick of working under you and with the team... look at how you guys reacted on one of the colleagues personal problems... he might have broken a law, but that doesnt mean you guys have to see him like an alien... is that just how i was 'treated' when you guys think i am weird and 'uncoachable'?

whatever it is... time is constantly ticking...so cruelly moving on... i feel.... and great, miss jaymee just called while im writing this...and yes i wasnt friendly and sounded rude... ok... the whole world hates me... i am a weirdo... its a fact...fuck my life...fuck the time, can someone take the batteries of the clock...fuck!

Blurry - Puddle of Mud

one of my emo songs
Blurry - Puddle of Mud

Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I Stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face

Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
So make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
'Cause I am lost without you I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I Stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
Know that I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well, you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Oh,
Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you where to run away
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to run away
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
NOOOOOO!
This pain you gave to me
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me

My 'Virgin' Hosting Experience

Today was another eventful busy day, but i truly enjoyed it...

Went practicing in the afternoon for monday's major project for the singers' course.. drive here drive there, buy lunch and finally our class combined our powers @ weiyin's house... It was raining heavily, made everything feel so inconvenient... we managed to put the bits and pieces together, and i am happy to see that we are united as one... working very hard together for monday's performance...

After running thru once, i had to leave for hosting as i was going to be late...sky was still dark, rain hasnt stop, traffic would sure be bad... as predicted, i had to detour and travel slightly more to avoids the jams.. i arrival late, and our chairwoman, Jasmine... "kuai qu kuai qu zhao Khim (my co-host)..." :) Jasmine is incredibility good at control and management... Haha.. When she starts her complaining session during debrief, you better had done a good job earlier if not... hahaha.... fierce one lor... lol... anyway i found Khim (the 1st batch campus superstar 'powerhouse') at the cosy corner eating Lay's Chip... discussed about the flow, pre-arranged some jokes and we went up to the cosy little dance studio (wet weather location) and standby for the competition...

I must say me and Khim can work quite well together... she is very accomodating and experienced... i was like the talking kite...talk and fly, talk and fly... and she will hold the string and pull me back.. At one point, i kept talking about 1st time (virgin) experience, and went abit dirty... even the judges were firing me... haha... love the chemistry, like the tv shows... there was one moment i went blank, no vocab to use... lol... and i dig at myself to move on... Super big clown on stage... along the way while contestants sang, Miss Khim continued munching her Lay's Chips, and occasionally we discussed about the contestants... I was also doing my little judging by the side, writing comments on my name list....anyway, the whole flow was ok, just a blink of eye and we are done.... The judges praised the hosts... haha... Khim~ ^5! kekez.. Im looking forward to the next QF, next Saturday, feel free to pop by for music and my crappy hosting @ 76 Neil Road, 7pm onwards.. hopefully its a clear sky and we can set up at the courtyard (bigger) instead...

To the contestants, i know its almost impossible for u guys to read this, but i must say it was a tough decision for the judges... I personally will choose Apple, Yong Kwang, Mireen, Natri, Jayden (Adult Cat.), Mr Justin and Mr Choo (Open Cat.) to enter semi, and Lucius, Daniel, Wayne into revival round. However, sometimes life is just like this, you lose some you win some... Congrats to everyone, cos everyone is a winner, all of us took home some thing... be it advice, experience or actual chance to advance....

Who will help me?

Who Will Help Me?

Recently, a friend of mine is facing financial difficulties suddenly... Didn't expect the word bankrupt to be associated with this person... I was talking to this person whole night, got to know some of his plans and some of his unhappy encounters...

This person might be facing bankruptcy, and will be forced to leave current position due to the status. Imagine a career of 13 years, gone in a wind just because of business failure... And worse, is that this situation showed how sincere these so call buddies and friends are in crisis... I'm refering to those who obvious can provide a helping hand, e.g millionaire... The person's direct boss also a 'friend', who is a millionaire replied "i'm also very tight, my advice is you better quit before you go bankrupt" When i heard this, i went into F* mood... for your info, i know the millionaire too... I cant imagine someone like my friend who have been serving and fighting with this boss for 13 years, contributing the millions of dollars of assets and networth, receive such treatment... its just a $150k, and my friend is willing to pay up by instalment...

I was thinking and reflecting about myself, wondering who will appear and come to my aid if one day i need serious help, might not be financial but something else... seriously wondering....

I was sharing my idealogy of win-win situation with my singing class classmates...maybe i'm too much of a perfectionist...but i do understand that the reality is cruel and brutal...i cant always play the game like a i want to if no one wants to co-operate... i am too kind to be a business person, too kind to be a so call 'insurance agent'... a teacher who heard me sharing my ideas told me i'm not suitable to be in the entertainment industry, but i beg to differ... i may be idealistic, but i'm already in a business thats fighting for survival... my intention in every appointment is to make a difference in people lives and make a difference in my service VS the others... using my small little effort to change... similarly, it just need someone to step out to make changes in the entertainment industry to make small accumulatively positive changes...no matter where i go, i will try to influence with whatever i can...

Class Outing

Class Outing

3 April 2009, not our first outing/gathering but it shld be the most memorable one... i went down to OB early as i need time to write a msg over 2 pages(cos the big too many pages so we were forced to use 2 pages...) for the dance teacher who is leaving.. the day before, i went to shop for bling blings and DIY stuffs to deco the pages, cos the teacher is a DIY lover + i really dont know how to write over 2 pages.. 1 group in my class was having a discussion on a project so i 'pestered' them... we were all so excited and nervous about the project... they kept practicing and practicing till we overshot our timing to meet...

we rushed over to vivo, where we supported one of our classmates who was a finalist of mypaper executive look... too last min liao could prepare anything for her, so i ran to "toys r us" to search for noise maker toys... after going rounds and rounds i spoted some toy instrument - cymbal and tempolin...grabbed and ran to pay... when i used the cymbal, everyone looked at me... cos its so unusual to support with that...thought got lion dance... lol.. anyway we couldnt stay long to support her as the dance instructor was waiting for us in OB and we rushed back to fetch her and we headed to nearby, keong saik road a tze cha stall for dinner.... ordered i think 8 dishes... and the 12 of us sat together in 1 table, like a big family... very nice feeling... we chated while eating, though we werent as talkative as the prata shop session but guess we all enjoyed the dinner...

The highlight of the evening was KTV session! went to sing and we sang like nobody business... my throat was protesting before the session so i didnt sing much... anyway see them enjoy can liao... happy enough for me as an organiser... kekez... during the session really saw a lot of cute and funny sides of the dance teacher... haha... hope she enjoyed the session... in the middle of the session our vocal teacher + her hubby and a friend joined us too... we were all more than crazy till towards the end we all die down... energy dropped drastically, but a 'peng you' suggested by shiying, brought us together again in the finale... our class bonding increased by another zillion times~

after k-ing session, sent some of them home... when i reached carpark, ideas kept flooding my mind and hungry oso... so i called Gabriel (our ban zhang) told him my idea for project and funny thing was both of us were equally hungry and not sleepy... so i asked him out at 4am! lol... and he was steady, so i drove all the way to hougang and both of us went jalan kayu ate and talked till 730am... haha super nice long conversation... long time didnt have this kind of buddy buddy talk liao... i love this guy man! haha... We have so many things in common, namely, surname, dialect, forefather origin, mums r used to be malaysian, both in insurance, same ns unit, same ns vocation...etc....

anyway, i hope VS3 can stay one united and we will prove our strengths to others! :) jiayou!

Singout 09

Singout 2009



Remember the competition that i participated last year? My very first singing competition... Singout is back~!

This year's Sing Out '09 targets at both the ADULT Category (Age 13 - 39) and OPEN Category (Age 40 and above), in search of the BEST VOCALIST and PERFORMER.

PRIZES for both Adult & Open Category
1st - $2000 cash & prizes
2nd- $1500 cash & prizes
3rd - $1000 cash & prizes

Last 2 audition dates: 3 April & 4 April, 7pm @ Music Story


HOW TO REGISTER ?
1) Download the REGISTRATION FORM from http://www.musicstory.com.sg/
2) Print & Fill up the form.
3) Dial 6223 0012 to confirm your audition dates.
4) Prepare 2 songs for audition (e.g. 1 fast 1 slow)
5) Make payments together with the form to Music story on your audition date.

Registration fee: $18 (non MS students) / $15 (MS students)

For enquires: 6223 0012 (11am -7pm)

Though i'm not a student with MS, but have been in touch with them and i'm happy that they are always so welcoming... The students really put in alot of effort to organised this competition. I'm honoured to be invited to join their team, and will be hosting the competition... Looking forward for the hosting job, haha its my first time too... Really thanks the committee for trusting me, I will do my best for the competition... Doing 'homework', watching youtubes of talent-search programs... :)

No matter you learnt singing or never learn singing before (like me), whether or not you are a MS student, Singout09 welcomes all... Join today! :)

Super Sunday

Super Sunday!

I'm so nervous before my 2nd dance lesson... (ok, i shall come clean to you people about something i didnt tell anyone, i'm in a singer course... i'm telling becos i'm happy to be with some of these new friends i made and i am blogging it...) Practiced last sunday with classmates... today was the 2nd and the last 2hours dance lesson in the course... we had combined what we learnt and was going to learn and will be tested... problem is, i am super lousy for movement... i looked funny and unnatural during first lesson... furthermore need to partner female classmates later of the dance... shit man~ then before today's lesson, heard teacher isnt too happy today due to poor performance of previous class.... hahahahaa stressfulllllllllllll.... i danced in toilet at home and the school before going lor...

but things turned out not too bad during lesson... we tried to cheer our teacher up with jokes and our hardwork... plus we did impressed her of what we learnt in first lesson in today's lesson.... we danced till whole body ache plus bruises and skin peel at knees... and during tests, i did ok lah... from damn lousy to lousy... got improvement :p all of us improved i thinked... and teacher praised us...! happy she was happy with us and happy for the class too... :) just so happy lor... lalala...

after dance we headed to our vocal teachers condo for whole course gathering....had simple buffet, chatted and got to know 2 new friends, Gloria and Charlene... must write, scared i forget their names due to higher chance of being just acqaintance, and i have bad memory for people whom i dont talk to... later next gather see them again, i forgot names then paiseh... anyway there were friendly ladies... felt their sincerity just like my classmates... even as i was crapping all the way, i feel that all of them were acceptive... haha i feel accepted... i like~ hard for people to accept collin one... must understand... anyway, after eatting we were entertained by some course mates and JJ's video clip... the vocal teacher shared some words of wisdom and performed with her hubby...

There was part 3, half of our class went supper @ bt timah.... talked and talked non stop... from horoscope to teachers to our jobs to movies to food to everything lah... talked and dined from 10pm to 1230am.... if not we have to work, bet we gonna talk more lor... anyway we planning to meet for dinner and k-session soon.... more nonsenses to talk again...

Its really a happy day today, long time never so happy le... when mingling with alot of strangers e.g during the buffet, i'm still the emo self.. really don't what to say and do...luckily people were friendly... its just Collin... Thank you VS3 for making today a happy sunday for me...

Sa Wa Dee Trip (1)

Sa Wa Dee (Day 1)

After the long long wait and many many episodes... I finally could go Bangkok.. not that i like to go bangkok, but the whole administration nightmare prior the trip was horrible... all thanks to mr flowery mouth con-man... forget abt me paying extra + extra + extra for a simple bangkok trip.. lets look at the highlights of the trip... Lets start with 16 march 2009, morning, reached airport early, so we had breakfast at killiney coffee... my half boiled eggs were quite raw, but i didn't bother abt it... "Bangkok Here I Come!"

The 6 of us - Me, Mandy, Thomas, Cynthia, Ginny, Desmond boarded on TG404 that very morning...

the sky started pouring while our plane took off from Changi..

while onboard...

zzzZZzzzZZzz... and also ZzZZ-ing on board, a terrorist look-alike....

oops, caught by the victim...

while flying above 14000ft, my stomach started to protest... the damn raw eggs forced me to the toilet (lavatory)... try doing 'business' in the air, its damn... uncool...everyone knows i'm in the toilet for BIG business for sure... and due to my emptied bowel, i had to force out the raw eggs... and it took damn long... damn embarassing on my way back to my seat...

chicken with noodles VS fish with rice


flying above the clouds... the view was unbelievable...

After we landed...

We were greeted by students' performances beside the long corridors towards custom and immigrations.. We took a chartered mini-van to hotel, it was a long trip, since it was free - there were other tourists to other hotels along the way + the traffic jams... I was super impressed by how the Thais drive in small small alleys (which were equally jam) to avoid jams on the mains...

Along the way, me and mandy were attracted by the bright pink cabs on the road, huge big durians, weird looking people and a mama & papa shop...

After we checked into Baiyoke Boutique Hotel, we headed for our 1st stop, Tailor Shop!

I was spoilt with alot of choices... the services of the sales assistants were excellent and helpful... made quite a mess looking at the fabrics... eventually i settled for 4 shirts and 2 pants... It was already 6-7pm hence we headed to the mall nearby to shop and dine, there was a corner tributing a figurine of an elephant god with 4 sides..Thais worship their gods with roses, to show their love... (interesting).. As we were walking towards the mall, Thai's national anthem played and everyone at the open space freezed and stood still... we stopped too... really admire their patriotism...

We decided to try authentic Thai food at a restaurant, the food were nice... ordered quite alot of food...

After dinner, we walked around at a night market near hotel, saw some roadside stall selling 'heavily salted' girll fish and bbq chicken etc. While shopping, we saw a man bringing an elephant parading on street to get tourists pay for feeding it..

more updates in future entries when i'm free...

Changes

Changes


Everyone changes, everything changes... as i'm looking around the environment, the people... there ought to be changes... i'm like doing a 'spot the difference' using my memory VS what i'm seeing... Some changes are good some changes are bad and some has no effect... while memories and emotions linger around things or persons, their changes cause some chemical reaction in me making me thinking, thinking and thinking...


I wish i had not known some many things, so many people, seen so many things, been to so many places... because the more i know, see and communication, the more feelings i leave these things with...

Hydrology - redefine

Hydrology - redefine

Recently, an idea came out of no where... partly due to certain happenings... anyway, i'm thinking of gathering people with passion for music... a network that creates and promotes local mandarin music... Member contributing in forms of self-penned songs, instrumental coaching, singing coaching, professional advice, promotions, or simply funding... All these have to be done to keep the network self-sustainable and continue being a non-profiteering group. I was writing a proposal for this project, in hope to meet up some people who might be interested in joining. I'm looking at setting a goal - a compilation of 10 songs, recorded by our project Artistes, with full promotions in Singapore and Malaysia for the start. The more I'm thinking and writing the proposal the more I think and the more ambitious i get... I think it can be done, if everyone in the network is willingly to put in time, effort and the money, furthermore I've already have some contacts and suitable management candidates in mind...I don't think its possible for me to share everything here in words, hence if you are interested to know more, can let me know and we shall meet up soon in a group for discussion..

Why Hydrology? Haha first and for most its more meaningful for me - h2o. Ok, frankly i was thinking that it is going to be a tough and long running campaign; it might be like water using thousands of years to shape the valleys and ridges... Another reason is that the word itself looks like it has got lots of stories to tell, just like the song we gonna write in future. Anyway, I simply like to relate to water can? Unless someone can come up with a better name... otherwise its decided!

7 days after 16 days of 2009

7 days after 16 days of 2009

Empty is the word. Once again, the hollow-feel, and heart-achingness returns after a long long 5 years plus...

I've just deleted a whole chunk of words I've typed earlier... This is just not the place to express my deeper thoughts...

Do you know how pathetic I am now? nobody will know, cos i look like anyone else on street...

For so many years, after upsets I've always said i should be evil and bad...but i never did... again and again, i only made myself more sad and feeling worse... maybe its time for me to be totally different...

i just feel like dying...

16 days of 2009

16 Days of 2009

i'm writing again after 3 months of absence... i was overwhelmed by the workload in the last few months of 2008... promoted to be a 'manager' for recruitment, had pay-raise... sounds good... but it wasn't... i was more like a worker then a manager... there were little space for my opinions, hence i decided to fire the company... It made me feel more like working for myself, just be good in my Financial Consultant career, don't bother about company... and i managed to ditch the job and started my full commitment on the last week of 2008...

I was hoping for a good 2009, a good and refreshing start... but right at the 1st day of 2009, i lost my relationship...later i had allergy and my face had some rashes + my acne problem resulted from the 2-3 months of busy schedule, i feel worse... then i had 1 of the saddest birthday ever... however i must still thanks Chester, Dorine, Boon Seng, Shirley and Lionel for celebrating with me on 2 occasions. I feel sad, depressed these day... partly caused my the medication i'm taking to control acne... then today, i went for a 2nd audition of a special singing class intake, but i screwed it up myself... i purposely invited miaoru to help me with my song-writing the day before, we spent the whole afternoon and midnite trying to complete the song i wrote... i was so excited, but at the audition i totally disappointed myself and miaoru...倒影 was one of the songs i specially wrote and very much wanted it to be completed, yet i wasted a good chance to showcase it... I'm okay if i don't get into the class, but i'm not okay that i didn't do my best.... i hate myself... its all my fault!

2009 is full of shit! Please give me my well-deserved good year! I AM SAD!!! SAD!!!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING NOW... Why I feel like some people are avoiding me...? I never even ask them buy anything from me! Why I am I feeling like there's no one I can turn to or be with in the middle of the nite, when i often feel worse...? I ended up driving rounds and rounds and rounds and rounds... Why some people forever thinks I'm like this and like that...? If you don't bother to see me, or know me more, please don't think or say i'm this and that... I HATE ALL OF YOU!!! Can someone let me sing to the world, sing out my story, my unhappiness...? Why is there no powerful-somebody appreciate me? I AM SIAO! as crazy as the song that is playing now... i love this song... the crazy piano, the rock, and the singing... Xiao Hong Ren rox! aHHhHHhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!