HydroMusic Post 1

HydroMusic 1

after singing with jacky and recording 14 songs, i've decided to consolidate some of the ktv recordings, since using my neeon 2 this year... [those older ones can't post due to poor sound quality]

hmm... hope you guys like our singing... i know mine sucks... lol... but the rest of them are good~ :) live performance is definitely better than these recordings, hope you all don't mind the low sound quality...

any comments on our singing? leave a msg on the tag-board ba... :)

S Pop!

S Pop!

There's j-pop, k-pop, british pop and all sort of pop... heard of S-pop? Singapore's very own popular music!

Spop Hurray!, a new programme of Ch U, is searching for local music talents and budding composers/lyrists...

looks kinda of easy to participate.. haha no need queue under sun for long hours... no need sing infront of crowd...

haha i'm not a talent, not a composer nor lyrist... but i'm tempted to submit my crap... but my crap all half done... to get it done before 30 september [the closing date], abit rush... kekez... thnk my dream is still not murdered, someone please do something to murder 'it'... lol...

anyway anyone interested? i'm sure alot of those students learning in the music/singing schools will join... haha... the url is: http://spop.mediacorptv.sg/

Dear's 21st Bday

Dear's 21st Birthday @ Orchard Scotts Residences

Finally, my dear's most anticipated event of the year was successfully celebrated last saturday. Actually since last year, dear has been nagging to me about how important her 21st birthday means to her. She definitely wanted it to be nice and different. Different is a difficult factor, I had to source unique venues and think of ideas for her birthday. Initially wanted to rent a shophouse unit along liang seah st, cos i've been to one of it and found it a cool and cosy venue to host a birthday gathering, then also thought having it a some restaurants, shouldn't name them cos i'm keeping it for future use... otherwise not surprising for dear liao.. kekez.. then one fine day, her sister said that she could get as a venue at a serviced appartment... at first we were reserved with the idea, but after seeing the place... wah it was almost definite that the place was cool! Orchard Scotts Residences is like the idea living place. The landscape design of the open spaces around the appartment blocks looked comtemporary, modern and relax. Furthermore the interior design of the pavilion was like an outdoor pub.

Dear invited her previous schoolmates, colleagues, swami's volunteers and some friends. She was happy to see a good turnout that evening. I was busy from the morning to the evening, from preparing signature board to balloon deco to collection of her 2 tier cake to getting present for dear on behalf of her friends to answering the numerous phone calls to entertaining the guests... lol.. basically i was all over the place. It was great to have a good friend, Chester who drove me around to get my checklist ticked.

my bukit panjang kakis

I'm happy to see dear happy for the success of the party. She was like a princess that evening, having a cool venue with balloons deco around the place; friends of everywhere coming over to give her the best wishes; a princess' 2 tier cake with tiara and pearls... Some people joked that it looked like our ROM.. lol... anyway, my job is done and efforts considered paid-off.

dear's princess cake

After the party, we went up mount faber with chester, dorine, yanting, joyce, melvin, yee xuan, silvia, peishi, johnny to have some drinks and chilled there... the live band was singing some nice oldies, think its the best way to end a day at such relaxing place. Dear and I were hungry, but we thought the kitchen's closed so dear suggested we eat cup noodles when we get back to the appartment. Dear drank 'ballerina' without an empty stomach, and ended up dizzy and was throwing up some fluid before we left... kekez... she was complaining to me about how bad she was feeling.... but still she accompanied to buy cup noodles and promised to eat with me later that night... when we reached the appartment, she threw up again and was feeling better... we sat in the living room watching tv, eating our cup noodles... the feeling was so sweet.. :) after that it was bed time, but i wasn't really tired... and was talking non-stop about how 'stupid' and direct i was the whole day, talking nonsense and feeling high... kekez... poor dear had to listen to my rantings before she fall asleep... lol...

dear and me with her signature board

I'm sure it was a memorable birthday for her, and i'm happy to be part of her fond memories... :) all the best for your future endeavours... love~

HydroSound 1

HydroSound 1



Actually wanted to do this long ago, just too lazy to prepare... its my first recorded program... :) I know i sounded funny and stiff in the recording... kekez... i was damn nervous while recording... anyway, i look forward to your suggestions, tag me or email me @ theplainwater@hotmail.com :)

p.s: don't play cheat and only listen to what i recorded... at least listen thru the whole thing once k? :)

Getai, New People, Fireworks, Facial...

Getai, New People, Fireworks, Facial...

its been awhile [again] since i last wrote... well i was kind of busy... helped my mum with the new stall... prepared for the 7th month getai for SWAMI... and planning for something new in this space here...

last weekend, it was the day for the 7th month program i planned for SWAMI... invited Calvina and her friends over to sing, well if i didn't remember their names wrongly, they are Felicia, Xue-er and Veron... their heavenly voices crooned the crowd... everyone was telling me they sing really nice, and asked me how i found them.. kekez... really need to thank Calvina & Evelyn for arranging it for me, not forgetting the 3 girls who came too...

Besides the the girls, i invited a retiree uncle to sing a dialect pop songs, and he is a hyperactive uncle who loves singing...he has his own collection of discs and sounds professional...The hype of the event was when Anthony appeared in handmade bikini top, weird wig and makeup, performing with Joseph who trying to pimp... the duo acted wit the song "sio ba zhang" damn funny... everyone was putting money into the bikini top's cups.. LOL...

towards the end, Gan-ma and Xiuying brought us some nice songs too... and the working staffs in the winning team of the SWAMI dancing idol brought us their winning dance... In between the performance, i arranged auction for the residents to bid for something they like, using blank cheques we gave them... they were bidding for items like mini-radio, bak gua, fans, food hampers... some amount went more than 5000...

the event ended with a casino gambling session in the hall... it was quite a mess, cos we had limited number of volunteers, we had to prepare the casino and get the residents to move orderly but they were everywhere... some older volunteers didn't bother about me and started some stations without arranging them in the order i planned... in the end, i also couldn't do anything and let it continue that way, since alot of residents were already gambling... this really the only part that i'm disappointed about... but weird thing is its seems like everyone were okay and enjoying. well, its another lesson learnt... really thank the help and support for the event from everyone...

recently, got to know some new friends in the neighbourhood thru wholivesnearyou.. most of good people and we went out for several outings to have dinner, singing, games and movie... haha we loved to gossip and talked alot of things... we have a few common enemies too... LOL... and there are definitely some buaya and bad people... and i'm really not interested to be associated with those kind... i hate it when guys ask me for numbers of another girl... i hate it when guys brag like the world is his but can't pay back the small amount of money borrowed... its damn turn off...

and there's this weird girl in the forum trying to do social escort business... and after reading some info about her, i really find her unbelievable... don't know what to say... the world is filled with super weirdos... and i cannot understand how a girl can try to 'prey' on girls to work as social escorts for her to earn commission... don't she worry that the girls might meet perverts? damn angry with this kind of people...

went to fireworks festival 2007 on sat after the getai, with dear, michelle and davin... damn crowded.... everyone looked like ants, i quoted from what dear said that night... kekez... it was our first time to the floating platform... waited for almost an hour before the fireworks started... my silly dear is really a small girl... she was looking at the fireworks with the innocent eyes and stunning look... haha... see liao you'll want to sayang her... kekez... the fireworks not as nice as previous ones we saw, its still as excited watching the fireworks... after the show, we walked to carrefour for to kill time as it was still quite early... all of a sudden, wanted to surprise dear, so sneaked into mini toons to try my luck... surprising i was able to find a really cute 'stitch' with innocent look, which resembles dear... i picked it up and found the ears can be twisted.. haha, even better... so quickly bought it and surprise her... haha... its kind of the first soft toy i bought for her... and she loved it... kekez... feels happy to see her happy... we named it 'inno' because i insisted it to be related to innocent...

yesterday went facial..... kekez... its been 5 yrs years since i first went with my mum... dear arranged it for me one... cause my skin getting bad these days... wah it was damn pain when the lady was clearing the black heads on my nose... she told me i could 'make noise' if its pain...but i paiseh lah... all girls... i only guy there... if scream i lose my pride liao... LOL... i die die also didn't make any noise... kekez... after the scratching, squeezing and etc.... my face was 'eletrocuted'.... wah don't know how to describe the pain and feel... very fast.. the 1 and half hr session ended... kekez...

A Secret That You Have To Find Out

A Secret That You Have To Find Out




I've never cried like what i did for a movie... really cried, not just tears...
this is the first one...

I won't say anymore... you definitely have to watch this movie...!

Secret, 不能说的秘密 now in cinemas...

Blablabla...

What I wanna write? Don't know leh...

I want to write but don't know what to write... a lot of things in mind... thought i could spill some out to ease my mind and can sleep better... at this junction, i really do not know what to write...

hmmm... just anyhow talk ba...

we brought some elderly to a nearby hawker centre for early dinner, and for them to taste outside food.... i was feeding an indian dementia uncle... i fed him with quite big spoon of bee hoon goreng, but he could not hold everything in his mouth and some bee hoon scatter over his shirt... i tried to feed small portion but still as messy... i thought i was doing a bad job, then another female volunteer came over and took over me... she fed him with smaller portion and didn't make a mess... the uncle actually has quite good appetite, ate very fast... and mumbled some malay and english to us... when asked whether the food is 'sedap' - tasty in malay, he raised his thumbs up... :) then he kept saying 'carry on, carry on'... i did a few actions, and i realised he actually wanted me to feed him... haha so surprised, think he prefers big 'mouth' of food... when i fed him again, he smiled to me... said "you good"... wah... so 'over the moon' lah... then i tried to chat with him, he didn't response much... but knew he was a mechanic in the garden last time, was malaysian and has 3 sons... i asked his age, he couldn't remember liao... he is really a nice old man, when he sneezed out bee hoon on me, while i was feeding, he was apologetic... haha...

dear having bad flu, nose red red... and had moody voice... wanted to meet her and order her special birthday cake, but in the end, decided to go straight to mum's stall... asked her to go home rest, but she wanted to accompany... [thanks dear!] Joseph gave me a ride to Bedok MRT then we picked up dear and to mum's stall.... damn crowded today, alot of angry faces too... i knew what was going on immediately, the kitchen confirmed cocked up one... don't know how they prepare the food also.... mum ask me to let them settle their stuffs themselves, so i keep quiet... but the customers flared at us who were serving outside lor... just smile and smiled, apologise and apologised to customers lor... then suddenly 9+ no people liao... the crowd there damn early one, and they come at same timing, overcrowd causing our demand far higher than our supply for that 2 hours... confirm bad impression liao... what to do? its not the first time... not the last time... when dear suddenly say wanna eat mcdonald & fries... i shocked~ and warned her that she's sick... then she smiled to me... *pengz* by the way she was wearing little miss naughty t-shirt... so daddy brought the naughty girl to eat at mac, but no fried items except some fries to kill her crave... kekez...

planning to watch jay's "secret" tomorrow with dear.... i'm so looking forward to it...!

haha i anyhow talk at least some things written... mind still got a lot of nonsense but... never mind... i'm satisfied for being able to write... haha i am a rubbish bin... shhhhhhhhhh.....

Randoms

Here I am again

Explosion!
My cpu 'exploded 2 weeks ago... asked my friend who told me that he does part-time computer repair... he said he was having exams so i waited... then when i called him after his exams, which was when i'm really urgent, he couldn't meet my demand for a speedy repair [cos i needed an impt document in my computer]... so in the end, i asked my downstairs neighbour to help... quite sian abt it cos i at first i thought of helping a friend by 'patronising' him... and let him deal with exams first... then when i really need my computer urgently, i couldn't get his support.... i made 1 big round, in the end i went to my neighbour...

Wang Lai Seafood
My mum had just shifted her stall to Bedok. She said that her previous stall's business reach stagnant stage liao, the coffeeshop owner not supportive of improving the environment, a lot of people say the coffeeshop dirty, and many other reasons, my mum decided to move and seek a new start. Its a even further place and she has to work longer hours... actually i could have let her enjoy retirement, but i'm still nowhere near anything yet... If convenient, go support her ok? i went to help yesterday [the opening], business is still slow there.... the address is Blk 123, Bedok North Street 2, 123 Koffee Corner[kopitiam with red chairs]

We sell tse cha[economical seafood], there are some self creations by my mum, and the fishes, prawns, vegatables & other supplies are definitely fresh, cos my mum purchase them herself at markets - if you know her well, she is very fussy abt freshness[a true capricorn's perfectionist]. With over a decade of experience, i'm sure you won't waste your trip. I personally feel that the food is of acceptable standards generally, some dishes may not be as nice, but there are definitely some that will suit your taste buds. I like our cereal prawns, lady's pork rib meat[mum's creation], ze jiang pork rib meat[my mum's creation], and mango chicken[an appetising dish]...

Bad Dream
don't know why, out of a sudden, i dreamt of my father, stepmother, mummy, stepfather... it was another family conflict in different setting... i was shouting at my father... couldn't remember much abt the dream... but i just don't know why i suddenly dreamt of it... maybe in my sub-consious, i'm still affected ba... actually, its really so long ago... i also don't know... don't want to think... i hate my father who actually tell me, promises are meant to be broken... frankly i don't like both lah... cos none gave me the kind of things i needed when i was young... now i have difficulty being close to anyone... its 'unnatural' to me liao...

Old days Missed
I missed those irc and icq days... i kept quite a lot of old conversations that i saved long ago... looking at what we chatted, reminds me of those days.... last time mostly chatted with scouts and guides from other schools... then got to know alot of them... now some still in contact... we had gatherings and we went many schools' campfire, and got to know more people... those days were fun and safe. at least there were many clean channels, unlike now, only left with those dirty ones.... the fun abt chatting those days, was from mass talking, suan-ing each other, talking cok, gossiping... haha...

d/loaded mirc and went to some channels that i remember... none got people... only left those general ones... how i wish i could turn back time....

Singing + T&J + Frustration

Singing Combo
It was singing season recently... and singing with different people also.... cos kakis can't unite until glynis returns from cambodia... went singing with ml, jacky, isabelle, yanping and kelvin during weekend and with jacky, calvina, evelyn and isabelle on another day...

the second one was quite 1 of a kind session... jacky out of a sudden called me, said he is going to sing with evelyn, and glynis sis[this is funny, nvr thought of going out with calvina], asked me to go stir up the atmosphere.... haha... and i really went to make a clown out of myself... jacky last minute asked isabelle to listen to his concert, so she was there too.... haha $26 + cab fare, the ticket to jacky's concert was quite a price to pay sia...isabelle willing to pay... so either jacky's voice really make isabelle a fan of his, or....... :p

Anyway, i was totally mesmerised by Calvina's singing.... i looked at her expressions when she was singing [i know its rude haha...], you see how deep she is into the song... i like singers who can really tell a story out of a song... her vocal range quite wide and her enunciation was perfect, super clear.... okok talk too much no use... u've got to listen to it... download the singing below, and if got problem with downloading bandwidth, please download it another time, cos got limit per hour......

click to d/l...
Jia Zhuang - Calvina [die die must listen]

Ren Zhi - Jacky [another Jacky's attempt on a-mei's song]

Bu Neng Suo De Mi Mi - Me & Jacky [1st attempt, i zao sia badly during last part.... LOL]

Superman - Jacky & Me [this is a funny one...]

Shan Hu Hai - Calvina & Jacky [深情演唱......]

Gu Ji Gu Ji - Calvina & Evelyn [cute one...Evelyn was mumbling... haha...]

Hurt So Bad - Me [finally ktv got this song]

Tom & Jerry
The other day, Joan asked me to watch tom & jerry on youtube... then i actually found episodes which i once had in video tapes... haha... these 2 were one of the tom & jerry videos i had... hahaha... enjoy...

Tom & Jerry: At the Bowling Alley


Tom & Jerry: Heavenly Puss

Frustration
'C' opens brother's door [without knocking], grab the modem from computer and walks out of the room without closing back the door.... tell me 1 characteristic of C.....

I say SELFISH!

'C' after NS, found a job in a bank, but within 2 weeks, mc 3 days. Later quited job, saying that he wants to help at mum's stall. 1st week full attendance, 2nd week 5 days, 3rd week now... how many days? So far haven worked yet... And all day, he hogs the internet.... 24hrs! Brother keeps quiet, day after day.... he never 'automatic' at all....

Lazy! Selfish!

Anyway, i'm the brother... i had to sleep early and 'steal' the modem from his room, after he sleeps at 6am.... I really don't know what he is thinking... Cedric, please do something for your future... don't talk talk talk only.... talk is easy~ I'm not going to talk, cos sure quarrel one... you settle yourself...

I really have commitments like swami, and the css blog, so i need to use... please understand that those i'm working with won't know i have problem using internet, they will only think i didn't do my work....

update

Update

Just went for medical appointment in the morning with mummy... doctor said the pain i experiencing is part of the process; now that my knee's mechanism has changed, and i'm using my leg differently from previous, pressure point becomes different. Furthermore, my quads muscle is still small, hence it takes at least a year to resume back to normal. I'm given another 6 weeks' extension of medical leave.

After doctor appointment, went for physio, my physiotherapist given me 1 new exercise, holding medicine ball, raise up and forward, while standing on 1 leg... damn shag~ haha... then during a conversation with her, she asked about my previous schools, and we actually were from the same institute and secondary school! hahaha so so so 巧, she is my super senior~ haha...

Changed the blog picture & song, adjusted the font size and etc... just some minor minor changes... when valentia sent me some english songs, i was attracted by this song's feel... music and lyrics... i couldn't play it via 'imeem' cos of some permission clause, so i loading the song from another source, therefore can pause the song by the previous button, however u can still stop the song by pressing the "stop" - red cross icon on your explorer...

Saturday & Sunday

Saturday & Sunday...

saturday early early morning went to watch 'transformers' with cedric... haha... this is super weird and unusual... nvr really watched a movie together since teenage, somemore is mid-nite, we purposely took cab down, shared a popcorn and drink, completely the movie without quarrel~! its a record man~! though i disagree with some things he said, but i just keep quiet, tried not to say much... and it was peaceful~ 'transformers' is DAMN! nice~ a MUST-WATCH movie! the bots were so nice la... those cars too~ i love the romance scenes, cos they were funny and nicely designed and acted... the 'baby come back~.... ' scene, the seat-beat scene... haha... then those comical scenes, hahaha... funny lah... those who have not watched it, better schedule time for it! haha... after the movie at abt 5:15am, me and cedric walked to mcdonalds' for early breakfast, cos wanted to wait midnite charge to end... and we took a cab home.... i slept at 7:30am, and had to wake up at 12noon to make reservation for kbox... cos 2pm was meeting some 'neighbours'

actually don't know them at all, but managed to organise the kbox outing thru wholivesnearyou... i was there first... no one was there... i was like 'shit, kena fly aeroplane'... but i just waited and see... then saw 2 - yanting & caine came... haha at least got 3 of us, can sing liao... actually alone i'll also sing, did it once and was years back... kekez... damn boring... back to outing, then 1 other guy came, Daniel... then abt an hour later, our room door was opened by the waiter, and he seem to be guiding someone into our room... haha then i was thinking who could it be.... after 5 secs, junbin and ken appeared~! was so happy... now we have 6 liao... we persuaded junbin to ask henry and caining too, and he succeeded... another hour later, both came.... it was 8 of us in a small room... then i requested to be shifted to a bigger room and our 'party' started... everyone were quite supportive... similar, like other ktv sessions, i was trying my best to increase everyone's energy level... with all my crappy nonsenses... i warned myself not to be too 'over' at first, cos first time meet... but they were quite okay with me, so i crapped at my normal rate... kekez was fun singing with the guys... their singing really not bad one...there were 'li jiu ze', 'li sheng jie', english oldies expert, 'zhuo wen xuan', 'yanzi'... kekez... bt panjang also got good voices~

after singing, went to play pool... junbin simply thrashed us... some games i only had 2 chances to hit ball.... i ended up losing big, average of 4 balls left every round... super demoralising when playing with him... haha... in the end me and ken 'punched' for the pool session...

after pool we went to buy yami yogurt, caining wanted to redempt her free ice-cream... end up everyone bought ice-cream, and caining ate jumbo size alone! she is a big fan for yami... then we went over to 163 for dinner.... we ordered some tse zha and bbq food, table was full of food~ after dinner, chit chated for 2-3 hrs, then our outing ended... super tired...

today, ml woke me up with a call, she bought mcdonald breakfast... i was still very tired... so went back to bed to 'lazy' for awhile, and she did everything to wake me up again~! during breakfast time, she was praising bp's mac service good, this and that... then suddenly she realised her hotcakes got not honey and margarine! haha... she changed her 'testimonial' abt it... LOL...i got her my orange skin with honey and butter to be substitutes, but the taste wasn't nice... then she tried to use salt and pepper... haha... my crazy girlfriend~

after breakfast, she went tuition, i went to help up at henderson cc for the event again... foo was on a fiery mood, shouted at us, which was a rare sight... me and alan chen were in-charge to coordinate the loading and unloading of elderly... damn problematic at first, cos bus drivers didn't co-operate with us... see us young, can to 'eat'... but soon it was under control... only that those in the hall were complaining that we released the elderly too fast... haha... slow right, fast also wrong... during the process of rushing donw stairs with my lousy leg, i tripped, skipped 4 - 5 steps of stairs[with the gd leg of cos!] and nearly fell...heart nearly jumped out~ damn clumsy these days with the lousy leg... after settling the elderly, i went to hall and became camera man cum cheerleader cum food server... then went downstairs to settle the moving out procedures again.... but this time it was much better controlled...

after henderson, went to mad club outing with ml... as usual, the blur queen late, so waited for awhile before going to meeting the guys at a jap restaurant at citilink, don't know what ninja one... haha but nothing to do with ninja in the restaurant... kekez... we were given a cosy 'almost enclosed' corner... so private and cool.... food also not bad.... eat, talked cock, then waited for the super latecomers~ after dinner we went to watch 'transformers' at marina.... yes, i watched again! haha...

thats all~ 9 more days to next medical appt and end of this mc...~

Jay's Secret

Jay's Secret At this hour... the emo me accidentally found Jay's new single... Maybe some people already know... but i didn't know ok? His new movie '不能说的秘密' is releasing at abt end August, the title is also the theme song's title...

Here's the Movie's Trailer and MTV Preview~ Enjoy~

Movie Trailer [looks so nice, so emo... i so so so wanna watch]


MTV Preview

Rubbish

I'm sad.... really sad... sings: I wanna cry...i wanna fly....

alright never mind... people will say i whinning too much... say i'm fake....

hahaha... I joking lah... :) I'm happy...! :P

Collin Chan is a clown~ happy clown...~

I wanna sing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To The Most Familiar Stranger

To the Most Familiar Stranger...

This is especially to you, yes... you~ I know you're still reading...

You said i'm insensitive, incorrigible, immature, shallow, typical...
You said you saw me a few times, and didn't look/behaved like the guy you knew...
You said i think highly abt myself.... and talk bad abt others...
You said a lot of other things...

I read once, read twice, read thrice...

its okay for you to have said all these...

i'm fine...

Thanks for the last stab in my heart...

Guess people like matty, glynis, jacky, and ml knows i am a crazy crappy guy on the surface... think no one will be as monkey as i am outside... but they know who's the collin below the surface... I don't need to explain things that you saw... thats me you saw... wonder if its really me... nvm its probably me... you recognise me better than i can recognise you.... oh ya, i don't think i ever will recognise you....

I don't need your friends who don't know me to judge me.... don't need you whom i never met after 7 yrs to say those words.... don't need to see those stabbing emails you sent.... those words were like throwing all the efforts i put in these years, and stepped them over and over again....

sometimes i say i'm angry abt you... i'm sad abt what happened... i suspect u cheated on me... but have i ever confronted you? have i ever say words to hurt you like you did to me....? I even told myself, even if you lied to me, i'm okay... as long as you meet me and stop lying... i can let it be history.. i dun even need to know why you do it or what... but i think no one will believe.... becos no one believe i could fall in love with someone i never met...

you blame me for moving on... if i didn't moved on 4 yr ago... you said you will tell me everything, things will not be the same... seriously... if it was going to happen, it won't take 3 yrs after i know you, to tell me or even meet me... 2003 when i changed my hp number, i've made my mind clear, i want to move on... you tried to find me, even sms my mum and gave me reasons, i was touched... i thought it was the turning point... but later things were still the same.... i was really hoping for something again.... but... when i was in drama, my instructor wanted us to share our stories... i shared abt you and i.... i nvr say anything bad... but my friends scolded me... they shed tears... i shed tears too... i acted our story during a practice... they cried again...

since you chose not to know me in person, but to 'know' me from what you see from the few coincident occasions... i respect your choice... i won't stop you from telling people how bad am i...... i feel hurt, but its ok...

becos after all, you just like those strangers out there who don't know me.... thats sad, cos all those heart to heart talk with you, like drain water now... i opened up the real self to you...but you chose to hide and chose to believe i'm not like the guy i've opened up to you...

i really don't know what else to say...

think whatever you like...
i'll not find out anything from anyone, cos i realised what i wanted wasn't any truth...
i only wanted to meet you... wanted to hear from you... same as what i wanted before...


take care, most familiar stranger....

Matty's Bday Celebration

Matty Bday Celebration

Saturday night went to Matty's bday... K-union was big~! I felt lost in it... kekez... I was everywhere...~

Me and Jacky reached first, and waited outside... then matty's parents came, they spoke to the manager then we went in together to rearrange the furniture, test system, and waited for the balloons... I was reluctant to sing, cos my voice not recover from the sore throat and cough yet... But Jacky managed to persuade me sing... we sang a few songs to warm up... but i sucked~ kekez... couldn't control my voice and i sounded unstable...

Then i was disturbing people, asking them to sing... they must think i siao... i talked to them as if i know them... haha... First was Matty's cousins and sister.... then i started disturbing her friends... especially, huili, charine[agar agar spell], yy, and wy-English... they are matty's varsity frens... quietly sat 1 corner, didn't sing at all... i was trying all my best to make them to sing... kekez... charine and huili like xiao zhu too, so my bai fen bai crap, they understood and responded... :) they were like my supporters, waited for me to sing 精舞门... kekez.. haha i got supporters sia - i think too much...~ :p

cherie, peiyun, huihua, and jasper were there too... we were playing with balloons, playing pool, took photos and crapped together at one table... cherie's bright yellow with black dress, was striking~ i teased her that it looked like double yellow lines on road... kekez... actually think it nice, suits her... huihua was serving us, pouring drinks for us, then i joked that if kbox staff got so pretty 就好, just before i finished my words, she over poured the drinks... kekez...

then matty's sec sch frens quite cool.... got 1 botak[skin head], sang some oldies and Andy Lau's songs... quite cool~ got the bassy voice... and got 2 girls i have to mention, Amy & Yiling... I was so impressed by them... They are one of the better voices i heard so far... sing fast songs got the punch and clarity, sing slow songs got the emo feel~

Jacky picked 一直 for me to sing, then they 'pushed' [didn't really pushed] me to stage to sing..kekez... i zao sia again at the 理由 part... LOL... Then i made Jacky sang 搁浅 on stage...
Then around 12+am, people started to leave.... and the mood quite low there liao... so i sang some high songs to lift the spirits... kekez... jumped here and there... walked table to table... Glynis and Matty was like trying to control my siaoness, and asked me 'eat medicine' for several times.... I forced matty to sing on stage with jacky... then she was so afraid of the stage... glynis 'warned' me again kekez...haha think glynis was my mummy, and i was the small boy that nite... kekez... Glynis was 'high' on helium for quite awhile, inhaled don't know how many balloons of helium.. LOL... when she talked after inhaling the helium, her voice became very cute... kekez... then she was laughing her trademark laugh in that cute voice, so funny~

at 2+am, almost everyone gone liao, left the some guys, and four of us[singing 4].... nothing much to do liao.... we continued singing songs and ate the leftover buffet for supper... at abt 3am, the staffs asked if we want to go a smaller room, cause they have to clean up the place... then we moved to a smaller room, but still got pool table, and it looks very modern and cool~ stayed there for awhile and 4 of us left, leaving the guys to sing their boyband songs... we accompanied matty to mandarin hotel take her stuffs... Glynis and matty went upstairs... the security guard's attitude was bad! think youngster can't afford to stay at the hotel, or think the hotel only welcome foreigners.... Glynis re-appeared alone in the lift, cos matty was asked by relatives to stay, but she forgot her ballons still with jacky.... Glynis could reach her by phone and we have no access to the lift, so we released the balloons on matty's behalf, then we shared cab home...

It was fun 'performing' infront of people... kekez... quite lost when i singing, don't know where to stand cos of the number of groups.... don't know how to describe... anyway, i enjoyed... :) kekez...

Glynis talks with 'Helium effect'


Mathilda singing~


Jacky and Mathilda: I still Believe... again~

Happy SMS...

Happy SMS...

I was rushing 1 of matty's present last nite... from 2am - 8am... then was surpposed to go henderson cc at 5pm... in the end i woke up at 5pm... i was stunned~! then quickly wash up and rushed out... on the way out, jacky called regarding the balloons... then i stunned again... forgot to call~... then quickly ordered the balloons for matty then continue my rush down to henderson...

when i reached there, immediately after i alighted, i got to helped 1 aunite on wheelchair up the lift to the hall to her seat... kekez... let those who know i late, know i start work liao... kekez... i never ask what to do one... always find things to do then they won't know i late... kekez... as long as i do things the natural way... people won't know when i arrived... LOL....

there were 400 over uncle, aunite, ah gong, ah ma and children there... they were there to receive 'ang baos' from some businessman doners... this is the 2nd time this year, still got 2 more times.... these doners are very wealthy but good people... 1 ang bao = a low 3 digits sum leh... not a few dollars... u do the maths.... they contribute money, we volunteers contribute sweat... everytime do volunteer work, the smiles, the 'thank you's, make me feel happy... was quite tired, and my leg was giving me problems, but its worth it...

ml was there with me too... thought she so clever, suddenly know how to find her way there, yuan lai she took a cab there from tiong bahru... kekez... after the event, wanted to watch movie at tiong bahru plaza one but bad timing so we decided to take long bus rides home... on the way home, received tien hwee's sms.... wah i was so happy lah... cos she asked me to help her do something... something i like! haha... happy she give me such opportunty.... kekez can't reveal much now.... but its a small thing lah... just that i'm happy cos its a good opportunity for me... if i can do it, then there might be a lot of maybes after that.... i was so excited so so excited.... haha... ok little hint... its about singing... kekez... :)

ok talk abt singing, my sore throat and cough still 'blocking' my voice... later, matty's bday party @ k-union, don't know i can sing or not... haha if can't, i will feel damn wasted one.... the place will be her's from 6pm-6am... her dad so good to her lor... the expenses for the venue and drinks its 4 digits sum lor... my 21st bday was at my mum's tse zha stall lor... hahahaha....

i've drawing using adbe these few days, wanted to design a background or banner for here[blog]... i ended up drawing some 4-yr art pieces... ml said if i still a kid, i will get 'A'[... but now i adult liao... :( LOL... then joan said it suits me, said its cute, then she oso sort of caught the meaning of the drawing... kekez... i'll see how... maybe i'll change to the drawing... maybe i'll not... we shall see~

Energy's New Member

ENERGY'S NEW MEMBER!

Energy recently recruited a new member, his name is Tang Zhen Gang, 唐振刚 aka 小刚. Based on what I've found, he has been acting in some Taiwanese dramas and movies, other than acting he dances too - was Milk's student once, and coached K'one dancing before.

Hope good things will follow, after this new addition... All the best Energy!

The 'New' Energy

Water Talk

Random Hydrology

Having a bad throat now... every cough feels like i'm coughing my throat out... my throat damn pain... scared cannot recover by itself before Matty's birthday celebration this saturday, so quickly went to see doctor to get some cough syrup and lozenges. haha hope i can recover by Friday! then singing on Saturday won't be a problem~!

By the way, Mathilda! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Its Mat Cow Day! K-union will ROCK this saturday!

Past 2 weeks have been sad and happy... the sad events made me real sad and helpless, but luckily i had a bunch of funny people who accompanied me, though they don't know what happened to me... frankly, i rather they don't know, then they won't ask, and i can behave like one siao person...

I went out with Angelia to have dinner, talked to her abit aboout what happened, then later that night, went singing with long time no see Tienkang and Ida. It was abit difficult to blend into their click that night, but still had some fun. Then went out 2-3 times with Joan, Ying, Shu Juan and Shu Zhen, to play pool, to eat mac, to kbox and did some funny nonsenses together. They may be young but they are very easy to get along and confortable to be with... i think of what crappy idea, they will also follow and do... won't say no good or anything... and they responded to my crappy jokes.... sometimes i'm the one behaving more like a small boy... kekez... those who know me, will know my naughty, playful, and crappy nonsenses. Yoz... thanks for the times~ Matty called me to go out, and i knew she wanted to talk to me regarding my problem, but i rejected... Sorry, but i know i'll be fine, didn't want to talk abt it that moment... thanks anyway~

During the past weeks, i also started going back to SWAMI... being able to put a smile on the elderly makes me feel happy~ some elderly & nurses whom i never talked to actually asked abt my injury, they know... :) I also started to learn guitar from a volunteer guitar club.... my hands abit retarded... haha... hope i can play some songs for people soon~

Dear and me are better now. Glad that she is able to give in this time, and take it as it is... Actually, i never expect things to go that way, but luckily its back on track... :)

Oh ya, I'm not using crutches liao... i forced myself to dumped it aside, cos i really missed taking buses! Limping is shag, i'm still enduring the difficulties i face, but i'll be fine... Some people, said i'm limping like Tie-tou in 'Yuan Dian'... People stop looking at me when i walk! kekez.. As long it doesn't kill me, it will make me stronger~

Hmm this coming Friday & Sunday, my volunteer group is giving Ang-pao to senior citizens in living in 1 or 2 rental flats....We are serving them buffet and putting up some performances, if you're free can join me....we need manpower to control and guide those elderly, as the places are abit inconvenient and we are talking abt 400 elderly..... 22/06, Friday, 5pm Henderson CC and 24/06, Sunday, 1pm Outram Secondary School.

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Something about words...

Something about words...

Words... can words accurately express emotions?

"I am happy...really really happy..."

Do you think i'm really happy?

Are you using your mind to think whether i'm really happy or not?
Or you simply think i'm happy if i say i'm happy?

Nowadays, people become more and more complicated, you probably think more than you should. But its not wrong, because of human nature, especially towards people you don't know well, people who hurted/harmed you before, people you have not met before...etc. Its difinitely not wrong to have a second thought.

I don't trust words easily anymore. Words itself cannot be compared with Words spoken tone; Words with spoken tone cannot be compared with words with spoken tone and body gesture; Words with spoken tone and body gesture cannot be compared with words with spoken tone, body gesture and eye contact. The more the merrier~ Because if a person is lying, it makes that person more expose to making mistakes and loopholes. Sometimes it also involve sincerity, if a person really wants to express emotions correctly, he/she will choose to speak face to face, eye to eye.... because it will let the person feel safest [at least i think so...]

just another weird hydrology i thought of....

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I've tried my best....

I've tried my best to let you understand...

I've tried... but you still don't believe it won't affect us... i know myself that its really a separate issue... why can't you understand even having experienced the happiness we shared... if i'm really affected by that incident... i won't had been able to give you my best for these 4 yrs.... please do not just say we won't be happy becos i can't forget... cos we did had our happiness.... didn't we? I told you everything, thinking you'll understand why i wanna know the truth... I even proudly said you'll understand de....but i'm wrong...

I'm so so so sad.... becos i'm not getting any faith, understanding from someone i love.... and on the other hand accidentally finding out a cold cold cold 'truth' of the 7 yrs mystery of my life... do you know how big this blow is to me.... i explain and explained so many times.... you only kept asking me to "go find out everything you want" "so that you won't be unhappy inside" "if i don't get satisfied by an answer, i'll nvr be happy" "if i don't forget, i'll never be happy"

Wanting to know something won't affect our love! Having memories doesn't mean i'll be unhappy for life! Remembering is easier than forgetting in terms of things in our long term memory... i'm not talking abt small small things we put in short term memory that has tendency of forgetting...Relationship isn't small small things.... In my memory doesn't mean i'll keep reminding myself abt it! Our mind is a write paper, memories are written in PERMANENT ink! there's no liquid paper that you can use to cover....

Not getting your understanding is the worst feeling in this episode... i won't promise things that i can't do.... its impossible to forget until a blank piece of paper... do you understand? if i can't promise i forget, then u don't think we gonna be together? why why why things are like this.... i'm sad... if you really think you can't accept me... if you really think i can't bring your happiness... if you really think our future is uncertain... even if you love me... the decision is clear right? like i always say... you have the full sovereignty to choose and decide... i'll respect your decision... My stand is i am not a computer, delete = forget permanently.... I love you and want to continue our relationship... the decision is yours....